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Chapter 24: Metaphysics Part II - Laws of Metaphysics

Now that we’ve we set up a very basic framework regarding the structure of metaphysical reality and the nature of both the soul and the spirit, we’re now ready to go over the implications of what we’ve discussed more deeply. In this chapter, we will look at many of the real world applications of much of what was discussed in the previous chapter. As I’ve thought more about the nature of the subconscious mind and the nature of the metaphysical reality as I’ve come to now believe in it from listening to so many NDEs, I’ve started to theorize, as usual, even more deeply about the metaphysical reality. I began to think more about what happens in it as it relates to our subconscious mind, our soul and God. This endeavor has culminated into a set of basic rules or principles that I find it helpful to think in terms of when it comes to understanding the supernatural world. We will discuss these rules in a set of principles that I’ve decided to simply call the laws of metaphysics. For the most part, I’ve been able to fit most of these new ideas I’ve had into 5 laws that we will discuss in great detail throughout this chapter.

LAW OF MANIFESTATION

The first law I’d like to talk about is perhaps the most important of all metaphysical law and is actually one that we’ve really already gone over a good amount in the previous chapter. This is the metaphysical law that reality will always manifest, or be created, in a way that correlates to the pattern of intentions that an individual, or a large number of people, produces. This connection won’t necessarily be causative in nature but will always be correlative. This means that reality will generally manifest in a way that favors the pattern of intentions that you or a group of people produces but won’t necessarily be entirely dictated by it. Because the superconscious affects the subconscious mind and the conscious mind can always resist subconscious compulsion, it is also true that the conscious mind can choose to behave, and therefore manifest reality, in a way that goes against the reality the superconscious is attempting to manifest in the present moment. Thus it needn’t be the case that every aspect of one’s reality perfectly match the reality the superconscious is attempting to create based on that individual’s, or that group’s, pattern of intention. That being said, it is also true that if the conscious mind, or minds, involved keeps producing an intention that reflects resistance to some reality the superconscious is attempting to manifest, then eventually the subconscious will just charge in a way that does cause the superconscious to create in a way that is aligned with the conscious mind’s pattern of intention. Thus it is pretty much unavoidable that some prolonged pattern of thinking will eventually cause the superconscious to attempt to create a reality that reflects your pattern of thinking.

Furthermore, reality can manifest on a more local scale that reflects the subconscious charge and pattern of thought that a single individual has and on a more global scale which reflects the subconscious charge and pattern of thought that a large number of people have. We’ve mostly discussed these aspects of the law of manifestation in the previous chapter but I wanted to take a moment to recap many of its basics tenants here. What I really wanted to talk about in this chapter is the importance of the law of the manifestation as it relates to God and our relationship with him. Very often, I hear this law referred to as the law of attraction or “the secret” and it is suggested that we use it as means of achieving our wildest dreams and deepest desires. Of course most tutorials that talk about this law don’t talk about it in terms of subconscious energy and therefore tend to be quite inaccurate, in my opinion, about how to properly use it to create the reality you want – we’ve talked about how to properly do this through the use of a manifestation charge in the previous chapter. However, the problem I have with the way this law is often portrayed is that it is rarely ever acknowledged that the most ideal means of using this law is always going to involve God. It is generally presumed that our relationship with God has nothing to do with this law and that we should focus entirely on the self and what we want to experience when using this law. I believe this can be quite dangerous and disastrous for a few different reasons. First, there are many different components of who you are that are all contributing to some degree to what you want and choose to pursue at any given moment. The body will compel you to pursue more selfish goals and experiences for example while the higher self will plant suggestions into your subconscious that help you to find God and have a relationship with him. These compulsions may direct you into to overcoming a fear of yours which the body is unlikely to do.

Thus it is not necessarily a good idea to just randomly try to manifest reality based on whichever aspect of your self you’re listening to more in the moment. But even more fundamental than this is the fact that the metaphysical world is made up of very specific rules that make it pretty much impossible to manifest reality in a way that is not aligned with the frequency that your specific patterns of intention are connected to. For example if you decide that you want to manifest a reality where you have lots of money, you may end up producing patterns of intention that express the need for money in a greedy and highly attached way. This is not necessarily a requirement for this goal as it is possible to chase money in a positive way that is based on abundance and doesn’t necessarily charge a negative subconscious frequency in the process. However if you do chase money producing negative intentions as you do, then you will also manifest a negative reality that reflects the negative nature of those intentions. For example, the chase of money with negative intentions could cause you to end up selling drugs for money or engaging in prostitution. Or it could cause you to simply end up in very precarious situations where you’re making money in a very risky and immoral way. And lastly, even if you manage to create reality using positive intentions, there’s really no way to be sure that the reality you’re creating is the best possible reality for you or that your intentional contributions to the global reality that manifests are the most positive possible. Recall that each choice you make and intention you produce contributes to the global reality that ends up being created. How can you be sure that the reality you’re trying to manifest is truly a good one? Is it not the case that you often chase something, thinking it is what you truly want in the moment, only to finally get it and then realize that it wasn’t really worth it and was not what you truly wanted in the end?

In other words the conscious mind simply does not have the experience, intelligence or judgment needed to use the law of attraction most ideally. There’s always a chance the conscious mind, trying to manifest reality in some way that it desires in the moment, will create a reality that it later realizes it does not truly want. Furthermore its ignorance also means that it will likely produce intentions that are not contributing to the superconscious in the most ideal way for everyone on the planet. But then we of course are only human and cannot be expected to use the law of attraction on a such a metaphysically responsible and ideal level. But that’s just the thing, we still can use the law of attraction in a highly ideal way even though we ourselves are so limited and imperfect in nature. The key to achieving this higher usage of the law of manifestation is through our relationship with God. I believe that one of the major metaphysical rules for this planet, as it relates to existing in the realm of becoming, is that God allows reality to manifest in a way that is in accord with everyones intentions. We all contribute to the reality that manifests in our lives locally and across the world globally. Thus the world that manifests is the one that correlates very strongly to our patterns of intention or choice making. This principle extends to a world that has God in it and a world that does not. God does not simply force his good nature into our reality. Of course he absolutely could if he wanted to. But it seems that he has made it a rule that his spirit will only enter our reality when our intentions express the desire for it to. When this happens, we are then able to manifest a reality that is both inspired and directed by his spirit. This will, of course, enable us to create the most perfect reality possible both locally and globally.

Naturally accomplishing this kind of manifestation will involve charging lots of spiritual energy, praying to God, receiving answers from him, understanding those answers and then following the directions that he or the higher self, who is always aligned with God, give you. We will talk about more about this concept of direction later in the chapter when we talk more about the nature of purpose and the phases of our relationship with God. However, when we desire to create our reality “with God”, we’re actually able to perform a very special kind of manifestation charge that is directed and influenced by God’s spirit. Thus the law of the manifestation is most ideally used when we’re using it in a more divinely inspired way. When we attempt to create reality in a way that is not directed by God but is simply directed by the ego of the lower self spirit, then this opens up the possibility for all kinds of experiences that we might later think of as errors, mistakes and undesired outcomes. Of course we are, at the same time I believe, here to learn and experience the process of becoming. Thus we’re allowed to make these mistakes but if our goal is to create an ideal reality, then we can really only do that by manifesting it in accordance with God’s will and spirit, which we’re able to do when we perform a manifestation charge whose underlying intentions express the desire to be both connected to and directed by God.

Another important component of the law of manifestation has to do with a kind of hierarchy involved in it. An important question that we have not yet asked is what happens when two people or groups of people have opposing desires? In other words, what happens when people try to manifest opposing realities where only one can come into to existence but not both? For example let’s say that two sports players are performing a manifestation charge that attracts the reality in which they win some championship. These sports players are competing in the same competition and therefore cannot both win the championship. Who does the law of manifestation favor? In thinking about this question, I’ve come to believe that the law of manifestation is not necessarily “isotropic” in nature. This means that it does not equally favor any direction you’d like to manifest in. Some manifestations will be favored over others. But then what rules determine which manifestations will have the most favor and which ones will have the least? Well I believe that these rules, like the absolute nature our subconscious, have simply been determined by God. And the manifestation with the highest authority and with the highest favor will always be the one that’s most in accordance with the spirit and will of God. I often like to remind myself of a sentence in the bible which states “No weapon formed against you shall proper”. I believe this single statement is a reflection of this principle of metaphysical law.

Any time a person chooses to manifest a reality that is directed by God, and therefore includes the presence of God in it more strongly when formed, that reality will always be allowed to manifest. There’s absolutely nothing that can stop it or get in its way. In a certain sense, it will be like an unstoppable force that no one can resist. Thus no one can actually prevent a person from carrying out God’s will and each of us has the capability of creating, or manifesting, our reality with God if we choose to. The only question is whether or not we will actually decide to make this choice. If we do not create in accordance with God’s will, then discord, chaos and imperfection enters into our reality. In these cases, I believe the manifestation that simply has more energy behind it will generally win. If two sports players perform a manifestation charge to win a championship and then finally compete for that award, then the competitor who has simply charged more energy as it relates to manifesting will be more favored by the law of manifestation. Again this will be true so as long as God’s will does not favor either outcome. It should also be acknowledged that just because one sports players performed a more powerful manifestation charge, this does not necessarily guarantee that he will win. It only means that the odds of him winning will be more likely as he will gain more help from the superconscious.

In quantum mechanics, a particle exists in a state of superposition and can be in multiple locations at once. Only when measured, does the quantum particle finally pick a specific position, or more localized region, where it can be found. The position that the particle is most likely to be found in when measured is related to the solutions of the Schrodinger equation and its energy eigenvalues. In other words the position that has the most energy, as it relates to the eigenvalues of the quantum Hamiltonian operator, has the greatest chance of being the position the particle picked. It is never a guarantee though that the particle will be found at that position even though its energy eigenvalue is very high or even the highest possible. Similarly, when we put a great deal of energy into our manifestation charge, there is still no guarantee that our reality will manifest over another who has a lesser charge if we’re both attempting to manifest opposing realities. However, the reality with the most charge will always be the one most likely to manifest –

again presuming neither opposing reality is favored by God. This is consistent with what was mentioned in the previous chapter regarding manifestation charging and quantum reality shifting.

METAPHYSICAL ENERGY NODES

Another important topic related to the law of manifestation has to do with what happens when energy gets very concentrated in the superconscious. Now, when a person performs a manifestation charge, that actually acts as a very intense localized concentration of superconscious energy. Because of this intense localized field of energy, reality tends to get very strongly warped, in a sense, around that local field. This just means that the intense charge of a single person’s subconscious mind causes the superconscious to more powerfully try to create a local reality for that single individual that is aligned with their subconscious energy charge. This is not unlike Einstein’s generally theory of relativity where spacetime gets more and more locally warped as you stuff more and more energy and mass into that same localized region. What we have not yet spoken about though it what happens when these highly localized regions of large amounts of superconscious energy get extremely intense and start warping superconscious activity around it to much a greater degree. It would be very difficult for a single person to charge their subconscious energy powerfully enough to achieve such a state of high intensity. However, a large number people might be able to pull it off. Thus when a large number people are all producing similar intentions, this creates a very large amount of energy in the superconscious and causes the superconscious to try much harder than usual to manifest a particular reality.

Looking at the metaphysical world from this perspective, I like to think of superconscious energy as being like a valuable resource that you can produce on a local more limited scale or on a much larger more industrial scale. Furthermore, it is also possible for places and people who produce that energy on a more industrial scale to act like a kind of metaphysical power plant that constantly pumps subconscious energy into the superconscious and causes it to stay constantly charged up. This in turn means that the superconscious will also keep trying very strongly to manifest a particular reality. The more intense the superconscious charge, the more powerfully the superconscious will attempt to manifest that reality. I believe this concept is very important to recognize when it comes to the classic idea of the battle between good vs evil. This is because I believe there are many of these metaphysical high energy regions across the planet and a great deal of them are actually pumping out negative energy into the superconscious and causing a negative reality to be favored when it comes to manifestation. To understand this further, let’s first get a certain definition out of the way. Going forward, we will simply call these intense concentrations of superconscious energy superconscious energy nodes or simply energy nodes or nodes for short. When a large number of people are producing similar intentions, it is possible that they end up creating an energy node in the superconscious. Once formed, this node will more powerfully influence all of the subconscious minds that make up that node and are connected to it. That influence will try to get the subconscious minds involved to try to compel you in a way that sustains the node just as your subconscious compels you to produce intentions that sustain the frequency and intensity of your subconscious charge.⁠ This apparent feedback loop between the superconscious and the subconscious minds connected to the superconscious energy node make it quite difficult for an energy node to quickly disappear.

Thus energy nodes have a very “vortex” like property to them which means they tend to get more and more powerful the more people, in a sense, get sucked into them. Now because of the nature of transcendental connection, energy nodes need not be localized in space as we know it. This means that superconscious energy nodes don’t necessarily have to be at certain places in the physical world. Rather they can simply be powerfully associated with particular ideas, people, symbols and places. For example, the more people in the superconscious respond to a particular symbol by charging subconscious energy at a certain frequency while focused on that symbol, the more energy you could say is stored in the superconscious memory associated with the subject that represents that symbol. As an example, let’s say that a large number of people charge their subconscious at the hero frequency while focused Superman. This would add energy to the subject and symbol “Superman” in the superconscious or, put another way, in superconscious memory. Thus when other people focus on Superman later on, they would have an easier time charging their subconscious at the hero frequency even if they’ve never actually seen Superman before. Furthermore, similarly to the concept of categories, people would also have an easier time charging the hero frequency while focused on subjects and symbols that, to the subconscious mind, are similar to the subject “Superman”. The more similar some subject and symbol is to Superman, the more of a superconscious boost that individual subject and symbol will receive when someone attempts to charge the hero frequency while focused on this Superman looking symbol. This perspective shows us that symbols, which act as subjects in the superconscious, have the ability to obtain a great deal of superconscious energy.

And as more and more people charge subconscious energy while focused on a particular symbol, more and more energy gets added to that symbol in the superconscious. Of course it is quite difficult to get a large number of people to constantly focus on a particular symbol and charge their subconscious energy at relatively the same frequencies. Let alone doing it long enough to cause a superconscious energy node to form. However, I do believe that this does in fact occur. Particularly in industries and cultural institutions that are successfully able to get large numbers of people to focus on them regularly. One of the most powerful and far reaching superconscious energy nodes influencing our planet is, I believe, the porn industry. Because the body tries to charge the subconscious at the sexual frequency, most people are quite susceptible to the negative version of this frequency – lust. Often when people feel a sexual urge and wish to satisfy this urge, they will turn to porn or highly sexualized images and videos of attractive women. Because of the pure nature of spiritual energy, these actions and intentions will generally push spiritual energy away. However, this fact does not change the law of manifestation. As more and more people focus on pornstars, porn brands, adult websites and so on, they end up adding more and more negative sexual energy to the superconscious. Furthermore when other people focus on these same symbols, they too will receive a superconscious boosts that allows them to charge negative sexual energy even more powerfully.

As more people keep adding subconscious energy to this negative energy node, it eventually grows in power and has the ability to influence how reality manifests across a whole city, country or even the whole planet. In a certain sense, industries that continually produce and spread this negative kind of adult content, act as metaphysical power plants that continually pump out negative sexual energy into the superconscious. The corresponding reality that manifests will be one that sustains these energies and frequencies within it. I believe this is evident in the current reality when we look at the loneliness epidemic that men experience, sex trafficking, the spread of prostitution, more relaxed views on sex work, marriage and promiscuity and so on. All of these problems in our society are actually just the components of reality that help to sustain the metaphysical lust based power plants spread across our planet. In other words, they have formed exactly in accord with the law of manifestation. If men were not so lonely for example, they might not turn to porn as much. If sex work were not so culturally acceptable, then there might not be as many women entering the adult entertainment industry and helping to sustain it. If these sociological problems did not exist, then this negative sexual energy node would have a hard time surviving in the superconscious. That is precisely why it causes a reality that has these sociological problems to manifest. Going even deeper, the loss of spiritual energy that occurs in the manifestation of these kinds of realities would naturally lead to other kinds negative outcomes and sociological problems, that go beyond sexual impurity, in that reality too. This means that the loss of spiritual energy creates a kind of implosion effect where other positive qualities of reality can be lost, or harder to manifest, from a single negative energy node.

Thus it is metaphysically a very negative thing to watch porn and give your attention to the symbols and brands that populate these kinds of industries. Most people think that when they watch porn or provide it, they are only affecting themselves and their own local reality. But that’s not true. The very act of watching porn and charging lust based sexual energy while doing so, or uploading and distributing sexually explicit content, can actually contribute to the chances of another person getting raped or being kidnapped for sex trafficking since those outcomes are more likely to occur in a reality manifested through lust based intentions. This type of consequence of the law of manifestation was alluded to in the NDE of a woman named Penny Wittbrodt. This means that it is very important that each of us avoid adding negative sexual energy to the superconscious by avoiding porn and trying to live sexually pure. It is actually very helpful to associate sex with marriage because this gets people to think of commitment to a single partner when they think of sex. The more people that think this way, the more that kind of subconscious energy gets added to ideas and brands associated with sex. The more this kind of energy gets added to the superconscious, the more it will try to create a reality where people are less promiscuous and are more committed to their partners. One clear outcome that would be likely to manifest in this kind of reality would be that there are less people with sexually transmitted diseases.

Other kinds of negative energy nodes affecting the planet can come from greed and the desire for wealth. These energy nodes don’t contain quite as much energy in them as the sexual energy nodes but they are still highly consequential due to the way our, as in the USA, society is structured. To understand this, it is important to first recognize that most people do not charge large amounts of “goal based” subconscious energy while focused on money. This just means that they do not generally perform a manifestation charge while focused on money, although they do often charge emotions related power and freedom while focused on money. This kind of superconscious boost makes it easier for people to take unplanned risk based actions in the pursuit of money. However, I believe, the real problem is when a large number of people perform a manifestation charge related to money and do so with negative intentions that charge the subconscious at a negative frequency such as greed and avarice. Although this is only done by a relatively small segment of the population, it is still highly consequential due to the structure of society. In general, people in executive positions in big businesses will often perform a manifestation charge in an effort to obtain more profits for their business – often on the behalf of shareholders. This mostly works as it’s supposed to but the negative frequency of this manifestation charge causes it to occur at the expense of others. A reality formed according these greed based intentions will be more likely to be one where some have a lot while many others have very little. This is because greed is a frequency that reflects the desire to have more than one needs, even if it is at the expense of others.

Now, because only a relatively small segment of the population is performing these kinds of manifestation charges for big businesses, it should be fairly easy for the rest of the population to collectively perform a more powerful manifestation charge, related to money, that easily overpowers those performed by execs. However the majority of society does not usually charge their subconscious to manifest a reality where they have lots of money in it. Instead, most people are far too focused on everyday activities and responsibilities related to work, family, friends, social media, tv, music, hobbies, sex and so on. This continuous spread of one’s attention toward various aspects of everyday life make it that much harder for any single individual to properly perform a manifestation charge for the purpose of having more money. Furthermore, the more poor or less wealthy a person is, the more powerful and longer maintained a manifestation charge would need to be in order for that individual to attract wealth into their reality. Most people simply don’t have the motivation or discipline to perform a proper manifestation charge for that long a period of time while they are not already wealthy. This is in contrast to the wealthy elite however, who can pretty easily focus the majority of their attention on manifesting more profit. As a result of this kind of lopsided spread of manifestation regarding money, most of it quite easily flows toward the top to the people who are actually using their subconscious to properly manifest more wealth.

If more less wealthy people were to focus on manifesting wealth in a similar manner to the elite, then you would see the elite start to have more trouble manifesting wealth into their lives since now the non-elite are manifesting it more and more into their lives too. In other words the two realities would start to clash with each other. Thus these greed based superconscious energy nodes formed by the elite, are not as energized as sexual energy nodes, but they still have a very powerful effect on the way reality manifests due to the way our society is structured economically and due to how the majority of the population uses their subconscious. Such greed based energy nodes cause realities to manifest where people, animals and the planet overall continuously get exploited for the wealth of privileged view. Needless to say, such a reality would favor a low amount of spiritual energy. Other negative energy nodes occur in the entertainment industry as well. This ranges from extremely negative music that uses words and ideas that people generally associated with negative intentions to movies and tv shows that contain characters and story lines that contain lots of symbols that are generally thought of as negative. For example rap music often contains words, ideas and imagery associated with drugs, sex and money for selfish purposes. When people listen to these songs and repeat their words or focus on these artists and the ideas and behaviors they promote, they’re producing a negative intention and charging subconscious energy at a negative frequency while doing so. This charge adds more negative energy to the superconscious, specifically to these same songs, words, ideas and artists. For example when a person cusses, this too is a subject in the superconscious. In this case, it is an audible subject or symbol. Since most people hold a negative intention while saying a cuss word, this makes it so that cuss words have a large amount of negative energy in the superconscious – so much so that they can very noticeably push away spiritual energy when you try to say one while having a large spiritual energy charge. This is why people feel a strong aversion to cussing when they feel very close to God.

As more people listen to music containing cuss words and other kinds of negatively energized words and ideas related to drugs and sex, they are unwittingly adding more negative energy the superconscious and making it easier for a negative reality to manifest. I believe you can actually see a lot of the metaphysical damage this darker version of rap music has done to urban communities as it has spread over time. Movies and TV shows also contain symbols, plots and scenes that cause us to add negative subconscious energy to the superconscious as we watch them. Especially on the nose are tv shows with ridiculous names like “lucifer” and “evil”. Just having names like these can result in huge amounts of negative energy being added to the superconscious as a result of large amounts of people watching them, let alone the intentions produced while focused on the characters, story lines and symbols used in these tv shows. As these kinds of dark tv shows become more popular, this will naturally mean that more and more people are adding negative energy to the superconscious through them. You may have even noticed in your life that, as you charged more and more spiritual energy, you felt a natural kind of recoil to many forms of mainstream entertainment. This is because of your heightened aversion to anything negative. When many of these kinds of negative energy nodes in the superconscious form, they create a vortex like effect that tries to warp reality in a way that sustains them and causes them to grow stronger. As more and more of these negative energy nodes form and get more powerful, they create a kind of metastasizing effect on the planet metaphysically and influence what kinds of realities are likely to manifest as a result. Many of these realities will naturally be lacking in spiritual energy because of these negative energy nodes. I believe this problem of negative thought energy in the superconscious was referenced both by Carrie Kohan and Beaty Eadie in their near death experiences.

But then how do we create more positive energy nodes in the superconscious? Well in order to accomplish this, there would need to be sociological industries and institutions that pump out positive energy into the superconscious in industrial sized amounts. This would mean that a large number of people in these industries and institutions charge positive subconscious energy while focused on symbols, brands and activities associated with these institutions. Needless to say, this occurrence isn’t nearly as prevalent in society for positive subconscious frequencies as it is for negative ones. Most of the entertaining media we consume was originally made in the hopes of receiving profit. But it's hard to produce media that stimulates us at purely positive emotional frequencies since our body doesn't help us to charge these frequencies. Thus truly positive entertainment media is not very popular among content creators even though that could help in adding more positive energy to the superconscious. However, one institution that does successfully accomplish this feat is the church and places of worship in general. This is because these are one of the few places that large amounts of people come together and focus on God. In doing so, large amounts of spiritual energy get pumped into the superconscious and are associated with those religious institutions. The church, the bible and the symbol of the cross for example all have large amounts of spiritual energy associated with them in the superconscious and make it easier to both charge spiritual energy while focused on them and to manifest a reality that is directed by the will God. I’ve got the sense in my life that the word “Jesus” has huge amounts of spiritual energy associated it – although this power may extend beyond the superconscious configuration and may simply be its own metaphysical law. This concept, however, reminds me of a passage in the bible that states “where two or three are gathered in my name, I am among them”. I believe this concept also refers to the metaphysical phenomenon in which the spirit and will of God can more easily manifest into our reality when more and more people gather and are focused on him. I've actually noticed myself that I can charge spiritual energy much more easily when I'm either I'm at church or shortly after leaving it and invite any Christian readers to test this for themselves.

In a certain sense, spiritual institutions act almost like a metaphysical immune system for our planet because they are one of the few places in our society and culture where spiritual energy nodes are able to form and influence how reality manifests in our world. This is also why it is so damaging when priests engage in sexual abuse, scamming others for money or exhalt themselves as a cult leader. On top of these acts being evil in and of themselves, they also damage the reputation of the church which, in turn, affects how large numbers of people think of these institutions and the symbols associated with them. This goes for all spiritual institutions as well, not just the church. When this corruption occurs, people start to think less about God while focused on these institutions and their associated symbols and more on immorality. This weakens the manifestational power of these symbols overall. Such a continuous occurrence could make it easier for realities to manifest in which people focus less on God and therefore do not manifest with him. This could lead to a rise in atheism and less interest in the spiritual and metaphysical. It could also lead to more interest in the metaphysical but not in a truly spiritual way. We see this in many new age communities which focus on the spiritual world but in a way that is not associated with God. This is why they often have negative experiences with negative entities. I believe it is important that we, as a global society, start creating more locations where people can and do come together in the name of God and Jesus Christ and express desire to act in accord with their will. This will ultimately lead to more positive superconscious energy nodes around the planet that are able to counter act all of the negative energy nodes across the planet. People often think that going to church doesn't really do anything metaphysically. But no, simply going to church and focusing on God with others is enough to help contribute spiritual energy to the superconscious and help a truly positive reality manifest.

LOCAL SPATIAL ENERGY NODES

In the previous section, we spoke about the concept of energy nodes and mostly looked at the way these nodes occur in the superconscious in a purely metaphysical way. For example we did not make any reference to specific physical locations in regards to these nodes. I’d like to acknowledge in this section that, though somewhat rare, I believe these kinds of energy nodes do occur as well. In this case, the energy is highly localized and is associated with an actual object or physical location rather than just a symbol, brand or industry. In this case, chi energy is likely required to add power to that object or location’s energy node. I’ve often thought about the possibility of this when it comes to creating an energy node for healing. As an example of how this might work, let’s say that there is a group of people – about 10 of them as it would be difficult for a single individual to create a powerful energy node themselves. These 10 people then focus on a particular room that is in a hospital and hold the intention to bless that room with healing energy. To accomplish this they would first get permission from God prior and then, if approved, ask him to bless the room and ensure that any person who enters that room and accepts its healing energy be blessed with extraordinary healing capability. They would then simply charge their chi, in the manner we discussed in chapter 8, while focused on the room and hold the intention that the room heal anyone in it who accepts its energy. Now they would not be able to store very much healing chi in this room in a single session.

However, lets say they repeat this process everyday. They continuously focus on God, ask him to bless the room, charge their own spiritual energy and then charge their chi by holding the intention that the room heal whoever enters into and accepts its energy. In theory, this would create a very intense healing node within that particular hospital room over time. It wouldn’t be a node that just any one could access by focusing on the thought of the room or symbols associated with the room. To access that healing energy, a person would actually have to spatially be located within that room. To pull this off, the participants storing this healing energy would of course need to be people who have a huge amount of spiritual energy and a strong relationship with God. However if done correctly, I suspect that a person who is injured and is healing in that room would experience extraordinary healing ability. They would first need to declare that they accept this healing energy and hold the intention to absorb it and heal their body. This is required in order to locally manifest a reality that uses this energy. They would also ask God to help them receive the blessed healing energy in order to recover from their injury quicker. Because God’s spirit enters our reality most easily through manifestation and intentions focused on God, it is important to consistently focus on God when dealing with these metaphysical types of energy. God’s spirit can very easily work its magic with these kinds of energies if you request it and does not require all the charging time and focus that we require. This makes the act of invoking God’s spirit, and also Jesus if you’re Christian, enhance your overall ability to work with these energies in a positive way.

If that injured individual keeps focusing on healing and also has a lot of spiritual energy and a strong relationship with God, then I suspect they would be able to heal much faster than usual. Of course right now this is just a theory of mine that I’ve considered to be a possibility. However it is possible that this concept was confirmed in the NDE of a man named Dannion Brinkley. In his NDE, he was instructed to develop healing energy centers. Although I'm unfamiliar with exactly how these energy centers are expected to work, I suspect that they may, from a metaphysical perspective, operate in a similar manner to what I've described here. Now while we looked at healing in this case, I believe this can be done with any positive subconscious frequency really. For example I could also hold a book, such as the bible, and ask God or Jesus out loud to bless the bible so that anyone who comes into contact with it is able to experience a greater desire and opportunity to know them and willingly choose to ask God to enter their lives and guide them. As I hold the intention for this book to bring others closer to the God and pray, I will have then – with God’s permission – blessed the book. A large group of people could also do this same thing for a whole church as well or some place of worship. I do not believe experiments have ever been done to truly research what happens when an intensely charged local energy node obtains a huge amount of spiritual energy in this manner. I suspect that, if done properly, people who interact with such a church would notice an increased sense of feeling the presence of God and may even start to experience supernatural events involving God or angels.

Unfortunately, by the same token, this probably does sometimes occur in the negative form as well. I remember listening to a story about a women, whom I could only find her first name (Michelle), who picked up some kind of spell book in a new age store that delved into such things. She mentioned that when she brought the book home and touched the book, she felt a really dark presence behind her. As she spoke the incantations in the book, the spirit came closer and closer to her. It then spoke to her and told her that if she would accept the spirit inside her then the spirit would guide her. She then did this and of course the spirit entered her and helped her to become a witch. Eventually she started asking for more of these spirits to enter her so that she could obtain more metaphysical power. Over time she noticed that she was becoming more and more depressed and unhealthy – a natural symptom of losing spiritual energy. Eventually the spirits attempted to get her to do something very evil and threatened to hurt her if she did not. She realized that these spirits were all incredibly evil and then cried out to God for help. A few days later, Jesus appeared to her and helped her to exorcise those demons from her spirit and local reality. I say all of this to say that this is what occurs when you interact with objects or locations that are cursed. In these cases, a hugely negative energy node is created and attached to a particular object or location and, when you interact with that object and accept its energy, you invite negative entities into your local reality and start manifesting with them.

Of course, due to the hierarchy of manifestation, God’s spirit and will easily always beat and overpower anything that is against it. However you must accept God into your life to start manifesting with his spirit. This is why people who do not know God and don’t have a strong relationship with him are so vulnerable to these kinds of negative experiences. It is very possible for new age objects such as crystals, tarot cards, spell books and ouiji boards to be cursed in this manner. That’s why it is ultimately best to steer clear of them and remain steadfast in maintaining a strong focus on God and manifesting with his spirit. He will ultimately keep you far away from these kinds of objects and locations and will protect you even if you do come across them. I believe that there may be groups of negative individuals who have negative entities in them, likely in secret societies, who help to curse various objects in this manner but it’s much harder to do this on an industrial sized scale with chi energy as you could with basic symbols in the superconscious.

The last thing I'd like to mention about these localized energy nodes has to do with the one's that can be found in the body. Now these energy nodes will have a lot less energy in them compared to ones that form externally because they're generally just charged by one person, you. However, I've come to believe that our body actually changes in response to these nodes in accord with the law of manifestation. Now we've technically already acknowledged this rule throughout book I and this book whenever it was mentioned that the body changes in response to a prolonged subconscious charge. However, I've come to now believe that some of the chi energy from the nodes in our body actually gets passed on in our genetic material. This means that even our kids will hold on to some of our chi in their genetic make up. This means that their body and the events in their life will be impacted to some degree by the way our chi is attempting to manifest itself in their life. If that chi is manifesting negative intentions from the parents, then it will cause difficulty for the life of the child.

As that chi energy gets used up over time by the negative experiences of this child, then there is a chance that this child's future children will be able to start fresh with positive chi. However, I believe overall that chi energy gets passed on from generation to generation in this manner. Thus the negative energy nodes charged up in one person's body will cause problems for future generations until it gets used up. This is also a belief that Christian Andréason, perhaps the deepest of all NDErs, came to have after his NDE. That being said though, I believe the same phenomenon occurs with positive energy nodes charged up in the body as well. In fact, I actually believe that if humanity continuously charges spiritual energy on a large scale relative to the total population and has a strong relationship with God, then this will actually cause our species to evolve into higher frequency beings, perhaps the first life form of this kind on the planet. Unfortunately it is quite difficult to know if such a phenomenon would occur for sure as the required conditions are nearly impossible to achieve for the purpose of experimentation. It could potentially be tested with a much smaller pool of genetic material though, perhaps a particular bloodline of a relatively small group of people. However, even that would still be very difficult to test for as there would be too many variables to keep track

LAW OF SPIRITUAL RELATIVITY

The next law I’d like to discuss has to do the with the fairly subjective nature of reality. In chapter 2, I mentioned that knowledge about reality can fall into two main categories, the objective and the subjective. Knowledge in the objective category consists of objective truths about reality that can be objectively demonstrated to an external observer. Knowledge in the subjective category consists of objective truths that can only be known by the observer themselves. These truths cannot be objectively demonstrated to an external observer. Pretty much everything we’ve discussed about the nature and mechanics of the subconscious mind falls into the subjective category of knowledge. Well a particular area of knowledge that I’ve been curious about in a similar way involves the nature of our dreams and NDEs. I bunch both of these phenomena together in this manner because I believe that they are actually the same phenomenon or are very closely related. I’ve become convinced of this fact after studying many near death experiences and noticing just how varied they are. One of the greatest mysteries about NDEs is whether or not they are actually true experiences. I mean this in the sense that we often wonder whether or not everything told to NDErs during these experiences can be accepted as absolute truth. Our first instinct would of course be to assume that these experiences are absolutely true. However the problem with this is that many NDErs tend to report information received from them that seems to conflict or contradict with each other.

For example some NDEs say that God does not judge us while others say that he does. Some NDEs say that there is a hell while others say there is not. Certainly, whatever the case, both of these reports cannot be true but then which one is? How are we to interpret these experiences so that we’re able to obtain absolute truth? Is this even possible? After thinking about this for a while, I began to think about how our dreams are also very different from each other. Many random things tend to occur in our dreams that all seem to be true in the moment but we later realize, after waking up, that none of it was real. But then what does that statement really mean though? What makes a reality we’re able to perceive real vs not real? Is it simply the consistency of the physical world that makes it real vs the dream world? If the dream world were more consistent in the same sense that the physical world is, would it then become real? Because if that’s true, then what we’re really doing is defining real by the term objective. We assume that reality must operate in some objective way that is not based on our own thoughts and feelings. This part of reality must therefore operate in some consistent way that is always the same from one moment to next and does not change when our thoughts and feelings change. But then what if the spirit world does not function in this same way?

We assume this objective property of reality because that is how the physical world works. But there really isn’t any reason that this objective nature of reality must also apply to the spirit world. After thinking about this further, I remembered many NDEs where people were aware that the way God and other beings appeared to them was based on their beliefs. This would seem to indicate that some aspect of the experience was tailored to their own beliefs and desires. Yet not every NDE seems to contain information that, as far as we know, is tailored solely to a person’s beliefs. For example many atheists have seen Jesus in NDEs even though they didn’t believe in him. Clearly some aspect of the experience is occurring outside of what our personal beliefs and feelings are. A similar thing can be said about our dreams. But then does this mean that this "mysterious" component is the objective part of the experience? Or is it simply the case that the experience has been tailor made for us in a way that goes beyond what we’re consciously aware of? Well, after studying many NDEs, I’ve come to believe that the correct answer is more likely to be latter. Perhaps God or our higher self is giving us the experience that is most beneficial for us and ends up creating the most spiritual growth for us. But then how far does this go? In other words, where does objective reality in the spirit world end and experience that is tailor made for us begin? Is there truly a way to know?

In thinking about these questions, I’ve come to a new belief about the nature of reality that I believe is so integral to its make up that I’ve considered it to be an actual metaphysical law. I like to call this the law of spiritual relativity. I call it spiritual relativity to differentiate it from Einstein's special and general relativity in physics. This law basically states that the spiritual world operates in a way that causes it to appear to very much be changing in response to the individual. In fact it changes so much that obtaining a more complete understanding of objective truth in that world may not be completely possible, at least not on our own. Reality simply changes too much in response to our thoughts and beliefs to accomplish this. This is similar to how it was incredibly difficult for me to understand the objective nature of my subconscious mind because it was and is constantly changing in response to my thoughts. However this concept is even more exaggerated in the spirit world because reality changes in that world in response to the thoughts and feelings of others and aspects of the self that extend beyond what you’re consciously aware of. For example when God or the higher self create some experience for us in that world, it would seem to occur outside of what we’re consciously thinking and feeling in the moment. From our perspective, we may simply have no clue why some event is happening in that case, yet it is still happening in a way that is relative to our thoughts and feelings and unique personality overall.

This extreme relativity of the spirit world and metaphysical reality overall is why we have so much trouble understanding it. We’re used to the objective nature of this world where most of what goes on seems to have nothing to do with what we’re thinking and feeling. This makes it relatively easy to study the objective nature of how things work in this world, the study of physics. We expect this same degree of objectivity in the spirit world and the same ease of ability to study objective truth there. But I believe it is much harder to gain truly objective information there because it is constantly changing in response to us. Perhaps objective metaphysical truth is known much more easily after we pass from this world but, for now, it is rather difficult to know. That being said, I do believe that God and the higher self often give us nuggets of truth in regards to the way things work in that world. I believe that NDEs are not necessarily meant to be interpreted as absolute statements of truth in regards to the nature of the metaphysical. Instead, they are meant to give people only a piece of objective metaphysical truth. It may be the case that no one person who has had an NDE has all truth about the spirit world but all NDErs do have some truth about the spirit world. Furthermore, it may be possible that obtaining full objective truth is possible by studying the testimony of others. In other words the truth is made whole by combining the testimony of others together.

If true, this means that people who have NDEs are probably meant to share them. NDEs not only help the individual to grow spiritually, but they’re also meant to help others grow spiritually as well. By being given small pieces of metaphysical truth in NDEs and spiritual experiences overall, we have the chance to experience the process of becoming as it relates to obtaining greater spiritual knowledge. This is why full spiritual truth is not simply given to us instantaneously. Doing so would take away from our chance to grow in terms of discovering how the spirit world works including the nature of our connection to God. Thus we are given broken up pieces of information about that world through the testimony of others but we must still do the work of figuring out how it all works or comes together. We often have questions about the purpose of life and the nature of the spirit world, the metaphysical and God and wonder why he does not provide us with the answers to these questions. But that’s just the thing, he has. He has done so through the multitude of spiritual experiences that we all have throughout our lives. The combined information provided in the sum total of all of these experiences contains within it, the truth about many of the questions we have about the nature of reality. It is our job to seek out that truth and attempt to understand it, which we’re also able to do under God’s guidance and direction.

As I was studying NDEs and noticed how varied they are, I began to believe that NDEs are actually more advanced versions of dreams. In these kinds of dreams, the veil between life and life after death is weakened somewhat and we’re able to receive more information about the nature of reality beyond death. However there are still aspects of the NDE experience that are not “real” in the purely objective sense. These are aspects of the experience that are occurring in response to who we are, not unlike a dream. However, some aspects of the NDE are real and provide the individual with objective truth about the spirit world. Thinking about things this way, I started to think more about the components of spiritual experiences that seem to be somewhat “invariant” to the observer. This term refers to the aspects of spiritual experiences that either seems to be the same for all people who have them or just occurs very commonly. If some aspects of NDEs are not real while others are, then we can assume that the real aspects would show up over and over again. This concept of invariance is not unlike what occurs in the theory of relativity. Einstein shown that it was possible for different people to measure different values of energy, time and distance for some object. And, in spite of these values, each person would be correct in what they measured relative to their own frame of reference. Thus, in order to get around this problem, it was decided to focus on the aspects of measurement that never change, regardless of the reference frame. In other words, they are invariant under a transformation of coordinates.

Similarly, I believe that we can focus on what appears to be invariant components of NDEs and spiritual experiences and get a sense of God’s true nature and the true nature of the metaphysical. The first invariant truth, I believe, is that God is all loving. There are no experiences, as far as I know, where God told a person to not be loving or to hurt others. I suppose it is possible for a person to have an experience where a negative entity is pretending to be God and does tell them this, but, on top of feeling the negativity of this entity, the individual usually has it revealed to them during that same experience that the entity is negative in nature and is not God. On other hand, people who speak to God, almost always recall feeling immense levels of love and peace, as well seeing a very bright light or majestic looking being. There is an inner knowing that this is God and that they can trust him. Another invariant aspect of spiritual experiences, I believe, is the divine nature of Jesus Christ. Some people say that all kinds of religious figures appear to us during NDEs and that who we see depends on what our religious beliefs are. However, as mentioned earlier, that is not entirely true if you mean it in the strictest sense. Although it is true that we have experiences that are based on our beliefs and personality, it is not necessarily true that those experiences are solely a reflection of the beliefs that we consciously hold. For example, we may see a spiritual figure that seems to have nothing to do with our current religious beliefs.

In this sense, I’ve noticed something quite interesting about Jesus. He tends to show up in NDEs for all groups of people regardless of background, culture, personality, age and so on. Regardless of what demographic group you belong to, it is likely that a large number of people in your group have seen Jesus Christ during an NDE or have had some spiritual experience with him. In my research at least, I’ve not noticed this to be true for any other religious figure. For example all people who practice a particular religion might occasionally see a religious figure in their NDE that aligns with their religious beliefs. However the converse is not true. Namely, all religious figures or deities do not regularly appear in the NDEs of all people. I’m not aware of Buddha having ever appeared in the NDE of a Christian or a Hindu for example. However, that principle is not true when it comes to Jesus. It doesn’t matter whether you’re Christian, Jewish, Muslim, Hindu, Buddhist, atheist and so on. Jesus has appeared in the NDEs of people from any and all backgrounds. Of course that is not to say that he shows up in every single NDE that every person has. Rather it is simply to say that people from all backgrounds have a good chance of seeing him during their NDE. In fact, this is not necessarily just true for NDEs either. Jesus has even been known to appear in the dreams of people from all spiritual backgrounds. I've actually come to now believe that Jesus will appear, at least one time, to every person on the planet, either in a dream or an NDE, before each of us experiences death. Whether or not that is true, I'd at least like to believe that the sheer ubiquity of experiences with Jesus reported by people from all walks of life tells me that there is a “realness” to Jesus and that he plays a very important role in metaphysics and the spirit world in general. As a Christian, I of course believe that Jesus is the Son of God and is a direct component of God himself.

Other invariant aspects of NDEs seem to be the concept of a life review where you review the life you’ve lived from different perspectives. Some sense of judgment also seems to be an invariant component of NDEs as well. This occurs both during life reviews, where people experience the pain they’ve caused others, and during negative NDE experiences where people feel that they are being punished for their sins. It may not necessarily be the case that these experiences tell us the full story about how judgment works in that world, but they do seem to indicate that some version of it occurs. This is why these same experiences generally tell us how important it is to genuinely seek forgiveness from God, focus on having a relationship with him and live in what we Christians would call a state of repentance. I believe that our relationship with Jesus helps us to be made perfect and redeems us in a way that makes it ok for us not to experience certain consequences and repercussions for our evil actions. Otherwise, we must experience another aspect of God’s nature – justice. God is pure goodness and part of that goodness involves the concept of justice. When we are selfish and hurt others, things must be made right as a result of this. It may not necessarily be the case that such punishment is eternal but that it does occur to some degree. In fact, higher beings may not even see these experiences as punishment, but rather more like a process of restoration. Of course I can’t really know for sure either way but one thing these experiences do tell us is the importance of valuing our relationship with God while we’re here. I will talk more about what I’ve learned as I’ve attempted to go further in my relationship with God later in the chapter.

DREAMS AND CO-CREATIVITY

I’d like to now talk about the connection between the law of spiritual relativity and our dreams. In the previous section, we spoke a lot about the connection between this law and near death experiences. However, a lot of what lead me to the concept of this law as it relates to metaphysics is actually an effort to more deeply understand my dreams. As mentioned previously, I’m rather convinced that our dreams take place in the same “area” of the metaphysical world that NDEs do. Thus a lot of the same metaphysical phenomena that occurs during NDEs also occurs during our everyday dreams, we simply don’t realize it. Most people think that dreams are simply random and meaningless expressions of thought. They’re essentially just the result of neurological activity that’s meant to give the brain a kind of reset that enables us to think clearly when we’re awake again. Of course our intuition would likely tell us that this cannot possibly be true. Dreams are far too random to be fully explained by physical laws. As usual this is largely a faith based explanation materialists give to try to explain metaphysical phenomena in terms of their world view. But then, where do our dreams come from? Who chooses each scenario and story line that plays out in our dreams? What causes them to occur? Well I believe the answer is actually something of a derivation of the law of spiritual relativity.

It was mentioned earlier that, in the metaphysical world, reality is constantly changing in response to our awareness and the essence of who we are. It is not like in this world where reality is fixed and barely even notices the existence of our awareness. This rapidly changing nature of the metaphysical is most clearly seen whenever we’re dreaming. Now in order to understand more about the nature of dreams, we must first understand that dreams are experiences that take place in the metaphysical world. We must also recognize that, because reality is constantly changing in the metaphysical world in response to our awareness, dreams are fluid realistic experiences that are also constantly changing in response to our awareness. They may not necessarily have fixed and preset paths or plots because our awareness is constantly influencing, and therefore changing, the dream as it’s occurring. But what’s very important to understand about this phenomenon is that it’s not just one of our awarenesses influencing the dream. It’s actually all of them at the same time. This was one of the biggest revelations that I believe I’ve come to understand about the nature of dreams. I like to think of dreams as a kind of mosaic painting that’s being drawn by multiple people at once. You won’t be able to fully understand the painting if you try to understand it from the perspective and thinking of just one of its creators. The only way you can truly understand the painting is by acknowledging each person who had a part in creating it. That’s how our dreams work.

Most people are constantly trying to explain dreams in terms of a single source of awareness – our conscious mind. The reason they have so much trouble making sense of it all is because they’re not factoring in the contributions that are coming from other aspects of your awareness. But then just what are these other aspects? Well they are all the different parts of the self that we’ve been discussing up to this point in the book series. This includes your conscious mind, your subconscious mind, your physical body and your higher self. Each of these different components make up the total of who you are and all play a role in creating the experience that we call dreaming. The conscious mind, although somewhat dormant or less active compared to its behavior when we’re awake, is still “there” while we’re dreaming and can influence the direction of the dream by virtue of its random thoughts. You may have noticed this when, during a dream, you suddenly manifested something into your dream that reflected exactly what you were consciously thinking in that particular moment. The second component of who you are, and the real powerhouse of the creative experience, is your subconscious mind. I believe your subconscious is the main part of you that is creating the dream and is still doing so according to all of the rules about the subconscious mind that you’ve learned throughout the book series. Namely, the subconscious is quantized and cannot completely express its thoughts using free will although it does still have some freedom to think on its own after quantization. Now because the conscious mind is much more subdued during a dream, the nature of subconscious thought becomes a much more random and unpredictable element of the experience. You can never truly be quite sure in advance about what your subconscious is going to choose to think about while you’re dreaming. Whatever it decides to think and create during this time, you’ll just have to accept – although the more charged your subconscious is while you sleep, the more likely your subconscious is to think about something related to your charge.

The 3rd component of your make up is your physical body. Even this aspect of you can influence your dreams. For example when you sleep with the tv on, you may dream about something related to what your physical body is hearing. This is still possible even though your subconscious is not as strongly charged up at the ground state level as it is while you’re awake. When I first developed really bad sleep apnea and would go to sleep, I noticed that my dreams would often involve arguments and conflict. This was because my body would constantly go into fight or flight mode during sleep as a result of my not being able to breathe properly. This moment of panic from my body would go on to influence what I ultimately ended up dreaming about during that same period of time sleeping. Now after the body, the 4th and last component of what you are is your higher self. This component of what you are is not directly affected in any way by anything you can think or do. However, it does respond autonomously to what you do and think and influences your dreams accordingly. I like to think of this process as working much in the same way that the body does when influencing your dreams. For example, when the body senses the sound of the tv, it still sends some of this information to your brain and then, from your brain, this information is sent to your subconscious. Once received by the subconscious, it acts as a suggestion and influences what your subconscious chooses to think about during the dream. Similarly, your higher self can plant a suggestion into your subconscious while dreaming and, by virtue of this suggestion, influence what you’re subconscious chooses to think while dreaming.

But then what kind of suggestions would the higher self plant into your subconscious while dreaming? In what direction would your higher self influence your dream? Well, in my experience, the higher self mainly likes to use your dreams to give you messages related to your life’s purpose. We will talk more deeply about purpose in the next section. However, your higher self in general will plant messages of direction and encouragement into your dreams. During times where I’ve felt very disappointed in myself and felt that I did not live up to my own ideals, I have received messages of encouragement through my dreams. Other times, I have received messages concerning important aspects of my life that I should be focusing on and, during other times, I have received messages warning me about something in my life. I pretty much get all kinds of messages through my dreams and for the most part they all revolve around what I believe to be my purpose at this current point in my life and my relationship with God. But then how can I be sure that I am receiving these messages? Dreams are so random, surely not all of them actually contain some kind of divine messaging in them. But that’s just thing, I’ve learned that they do. No dream is wasted, your higher self uses every dream you have as an opportunity to communicate with you. Of course it is not limited to just communicating with you through your dreams but it does communicate in a very distinct way during your dreams. I find that the higher self likes to use lots and lots of symbolism to speak to you in your dreams.

One thing I’ve learned about receiving messages from the divine is that it is rarely the case that you’re ever given a direct answer to a question or a direct message telling you exactly what to do to serve God. I believe this is not generally done because there is a process “becoming” that is important to the equation even here. In other words, part of understanding how to best serve God and carry out your life’s purpose is figuring out a good chunk of it for yourself. This process of discovery is also something that the soul likes to experience and thus God and higher dimensional beings don’t generally prefer to give us direct instructions in this manner – although there are of course exceptions to this that some people experience. That being said, God and higher beings do give us hints and guide us in carrying out our life’s purpose and how to best serve God. This is done in various ways ranging from subconscious urges that we experience throughout the day, to the people that we meet and to the opportunities that just seem to sort of pop up in our lives at the right moment. However during dreams, this is done primarily through dream symbolism. I remember becoming fascinated by the concept of pre-birth experiences at some point in the past and then, during one of my prayers, I decided to ask God if I could receive an experience related to my life before birth. I was curious to know what purposes I decided to come here to fulfill. After some time had passed, I thought that maybe God has decided not to reveal that information to me. It’s never quite clear when God will choose to answer a prayer as there is no exact time frame for it. However, depending on the prayer, you can probably assume that a particular answer is no after a certain amount of time has passed – although I don’t think I’ve ever prayed for something and did not feel that I’ve received an answer for it.

Later, when I began to realize that I was always receiving messages in dreams, I realized that I did in fact have a dream shortly after that prayer related to pre-birth. At the time I didn’t think that dreams really meant anything so I just assumed I had that dream because I was thinking about pre-birth experiences a lot. Now I realized that, no, this was the answer to my prayer. In this dream, I remember flying around in the sky, outside of my current home specifically, and knowing that I was in the spirit realm. I then thought about the concept of being born as a human and wondered who would possibly choose to do that. I seemed to think of humans as a kind of lower life form, similar to the way we look at animals. Now this wasn’t an exact pre-birth memory – presumably a memory of the exact events I believe I had in the spirit world before being born. However, it was a symbolic representation of my life before birth. Flying outside of my home and thinking of humans as a lower life form would seem to indicate that I was probably some place in the spirit world that I considered to be home and was not exactly thrilled about being born human. But, the fact that I am here, would seem to indicate that I’ve chosen to do it for a particular reason. Information regarding that reason however was not revealed to me. As I then paid more attention to my dreams from the perspective of this "message in a bottle" symbolism, I noticed that I’ve both had and have many dreams containing messages in the form of symbolism. I rarely ever ask for anything when I pray to God and have also noticed that I even have dreams containing symbolic messages that are related to what I spoke to God about in my prayers even though I didn’t directly ask for them. In fact, I rarely ever actually talk to my higher self directly. When speaking to the divine, I pretty much only talk to God and Jesus Christ. But I still receive messages from my higher self through my dreams all the time, both related to my prayers to God and Jesus Christ and unrelated to them.

In some dreams there will be specific words that stand out to me, whether spoken or written, that are significant parts of the message I believe the higher self is trying to give me. For example I’ve had dreams where I believe I’ve received a message related to my becoming a father. During this dream, I remember getting the on the phone and then suddenly speaking to some relatively random adult girl’s father. In the dream, the character mentioned that they were this girl’s father and, for whatever reason, the word “father” stood out to me. This is symbolism for the concept of father. I’ve also had many dreams about being in school, which is symbolism for learning. Other reoccurring dreams involve being in a church or seeing the bible, which I believe symbolize messages about God and so on. Dreams pretty much always contain some kind of message hidden within their symbolism. They’re like mini-puzzles for you to solve. Now in some cases, I’ve had dreams that occur in parts. There will be instances for example when I really don’t understand a dream and then only understand it after going to sleep and dreaming again later that day. I end up realizing then that the first dream could not be fully interpreted without the second dream. This occurs once in a while. One time I had a series of dreams that spread out for about two weeks.

In other words, it was hard to figure out the meaning to most of the dreams earlier on. However, by the end of the two week period, I pretty much understand all of the dreams. During that time, there seemed to be a lot of information my higher self wanted to give me which was hard to provide in 2 or 3 dreams. Other times I’ve had dreams that didn’t make much sense until events that occurred in the real world later that day or another day. One thing that’s become clear to me about messages that are received from God or the higher self is that they are not limited to linear time. Sometimes they’re more about the future than the present and cannot be fully understood until a certain amount of time has passed. Now the thing about dreams though, which is still an issue, is that they’re quite hard to remember. Nothing we’ve discussed about dreaming actually changes this fact. Again the difficulty of remembering dreams comes from the fact that your ability to “recall” is still a subconscious action, like expressing an emotion, and is one that gets easier to do as your subconscious charges up more and more to use it. Normally this subconscious action is charged by the body throughout the day. This allows you to use your memory at a normal performance level when awake. But when you’re dreaming, your subconscious is not charged up at the ground state.

Even though your ability to recall is restored when you wake up, you only have the ability to easily recall things you experienced while your subconscious was also charged up at the ground state level – in other words, while you were awake. To remember dreams, you’ve got to use transcendental memory. This means charging your subconscious to recall. Now the good news is that, when you first wake up, your subconscious charges quite easily. This was referred to as a morning charge in chapter 12 of book I. I now mostly use this kind of charge to remember my dreams. This just means that I try really hard to remember my dreams right after waking up. The longer I try to go without recalling my dreams after waking, the more fully the morning charge window closes and the less likely I’ll be able to remember my dreams. So I know that if I want to remember my dreams and try to determine what message in a bottle was sent through them from God or my higher self, I must try to remember it as soon as I wake up. As I use a morning charge in this manner each day immediately after waking up, my subconscious begins to deep charge and it gets easier and easier to remember my dreams during the morning charge window.

Another topic about dreams I’d like to talk about has to do with other factors outside of your own make up that can influence your dreams. Recall that your subconscious has the ability to “connect” to the rest of the universe. This means that other entities or awarenesses can also influence your dreams by connecting to you at the subconscious level. Even activity in the superconscious could potentially influence your dreams. For example I’ve read of reports where many people seemed to have reported dreaming about similar things during the same night. However where this phenomenon really becomes significant is when it comes to negative entities. They too can influence your dreams and have absolutely no interest in giving you true messages related to God. In fact their goal is ultimately to try to prevent you from receiving messages from God and your higher self. Now they have a very limited ability to influence your subconscious when your subconscious is not at a very low frequency. However, when it is, negative entities are able to transcendentally connect to you much more easily. Conversely your connection to your higher self weakens because it is divine. The metaphysical tether you have to your higher self is very strong though and can take quite a beating in terms keeping you connected when your frequency drops lower and lower. It is unclear if you can ever become so negative or sin so much that this tether breaks. If this is possible, it is probably a very rare phenomenon. However, it is important to recognize that your connection to your higher self can weaken as you become more negative and less like God.

Negativity creates a noise like effect where it can make it seem like there is way too much noise to receive messages from your higher self clearly. As this occurs more and more, by charging your subconscious at a negative frequency, your dreams will become more and more distorted and will seem to lack any kind of significant meaning. Furthermore, you will likely also have many more nightmares during this time as well. Now, when your subconscious is charged up in the medium or intermediate frequency range – as in a little positive and a little negative, your dreams may actually quite easily appear to be influenced both by negative entities and your higher self or higher beings at the same time – as well as the negative or positive manifestations of your own psyche. This can create a great deal of confusion because some aspects of the dream will be quite positive while others will be more negative. This is what happened to me when I would dream during the time that I had really bad sleep apnea and was going through a spiritual crisis. I’ve learned that, when a negative entity is in your dream, your higher self will often use “negatives” to point them out to you. For example I remember one dream where a girl was sitting on top of me, attempting to entice me in to having sex with her. After this, I remember seeing bugs suddenly crawling on my wall, which I attempted to then kill. In another dream, I remember a preacher showing me a picture that looked sort of like an angel with wings. I think he wanted to give it more power or something like that and I was going to tell him how to bless it. Someone else there with us then distracted me and was trying to prevent me from telling the preacher how blessing things works. I then got uncharacteristically frustrated with this other individual rather quickly and told him that I would get a restraining order on him because he was so disrespectful. Experiences like this can tell you that you’re probably dealing with a negative entity somewhere in the dream.

When your frequency is not really low but still in the medium range, it doesn’t seem like these entities have much power to enter your dreams in a more profound way so they like to sometimes hijack your dream characters without you realizing it. Your higher self generally tries to point them out to you so that you know you can disregard their messages to you. That being said though, it is important to note that these are not the only circumstances in which your higher self uses negatives. I remember having a dream where I believe my higher self was telling me to stop eating processed sweets. I remember, in the dream, I was eating a cinnamon bun, which actually happens to be one of my favorite sweets. I then looked away for a moment and then looked back at the cinnamon bun only to notice a whole bunch of ants crawling on it. I then threw it away quickly. In this case, the higher self used a negative to tell me to stop eating these kinds of food. I’ve had similar dreams about eating meat. Before moving on, I’d like to mention that, just as negative beings can influence your dreams when your frequency is really low, higher beings can also influence your dreams when your frequency is really high. All higher beings act primarily in service of God so it is generally a wonderful experience when higher beings influence your dreams. I believe this has happened to me on occasion when I charged up a huge amount of spiritual energy. During that time I was actually just curious to see how high I could go. However I still never hold the intention to directly reach out to higher beings or communicate with them. As mentioned earlier, I pretty much only ever directly attempt to seek God and Jesus Christ.

The last main concept of dreaming and the higher self I’d like to talk about has to do with interacting with other souls. In this case, you’re not dealing with dream influence from another entity in the realm of becoming. Rather, you’re dealing with dream influence from another soul in the realm of being. This seems to be a very rare phenomenon but it does seem to occasionally occur. I call these kinds of dreams “soul interactions”. In these dreams, another person’s higher self will enter your dream as a particular character, presumably of the corresponding spirit who exists in the realm of becoming, and have some interaction with you. They will generally give off very positive vibes to you that indicate to you that they are “good” in nature. I remember having a dream like this about a politician who I rarely ever think about and whom of which can’t possibly know of my existence. Yet I believe I interacted with her soul. In this dream, she was so nice and likable – the opposite of how she appears to be in real life. I remember telling her that if everyone saw this side of her, they would all like her very much. In the dream, she admitted that this was true and that she should probably just be her true self around others. This politician is actually very toxic in the real world and rubs a lot of people the wrong way. I’ve also had another soul interaction with a family member of mine and have read about similar phenomena occurring when listening to or reading about the experiences of others.

Going back to the concept of NDEs, I believe that a lot of what happens in NDEs is symbolic and co-creative in the same manner that our dreams are. Much of the experience itself is occurring as a result of God and the different components of our being. They’re all coming together to co-create the reality that an individual is perceiving during the NDE. Now we’ve spoken about the different components that make up who you are. But what contribution does God add to the experience? Well this is naturally a rather mysterious component and piece of the puzzle that we may never truly be able to fully understand. We will talk about this concept in later in the chapter. However I believe that any experience God gives you, is going to be for the benefit of bringing you closer to him. Different people are inspired by different experiences and thus God will probably give you the experience that you need in order to become more inspired to seek him and have a relationship with him. I believe this again is part of the reason why so many people have different near death experiences and see different versions of God.

LAW OF PURPOSE

The next metaphysical law I’d like to discuss has to do with the overall reason why we’re all here. One of the most common and mysterious questions we have is “what is the purpose of life”? Why I am here? And what am I “supposed” to do? These are all questions that I think we have an innate desire to know the answer to and for which we all have an opportunity to discover the answer to. Figuring out these answers of course, I believe, involves a deeper metaphysical understanding of reality which I’d like to now discuss. Let’s first remind ourselves about an idea that I mentioned in chapter 14 of book I regarding the nature of happiness. There I stated that there are two kinds of happiness, the kind that comes from easy and simple pleasures and the kind that comes from purpose, which provides a form of happiness that can only be felt from an experience that required some kind of difficulty to obtain. I believe that the spirit is designed by God to need purpose to be truly happy. We cannot be happy in a more full and complete way by experiencing easy pleasures alone. Although pleasure is a part of the overall happiness equation, it is ultimately only a part. Another component of happiness involves engaging in actions and seeking goals that actually have meaning to you. Only when you do this, do you feel a certain type of joy that your spirit essentially needs to feel satisfied. This nature of the spirit tells us that purpose is actually another component of God’s nature and that we get to experience God from this perspective while in the realm of becoming as well.

What I’ve learned from watching so many NDEs is that purpose is not necessarily just a simple thing that you give yourself. All purposes are not created equal and you cannot necessarily feel the same level joy just pursuing any purpose you feel like. In most NDEs, if not in all of the positive ones, the individual having the NDE is told that they still have more work to do and that they have to go back. Sometimes the individual will protest this and will want to stay in what they perceive to be heaven. Sometimes they are then shown their purpose and how important it is but then the memory is removed from them. However, in that specific moment that they were aware of their purpose, they decide to come back to this world. Just what is this purpose that they must complete? Is it something that’s different for each individual or do we all generally have the same exact purpose? Well, again from watching so many NDEs, I’ve come to believe that all people essentially have 3 kinds of purpose in life. Like the nature of manifestation, there is essentially a kind of hierarchy to purpose. The first and most important purpose is the one that God gives you directly. I call this purpose divine purpose. This is generally the directive to “become” in some way and build a relationship with God. In other words, throughout our lives, we’re meant to know God by experiencing the qualities of him that can only be known in the realm of becoming. This includes qualities such as faith, trust, forgiveness, compassion and so on. Furthermore as we discover God through these different aspects of his nature, we learn more about him and are able to form a stronger bond and relationship with him through that understanding – in some cases we may not even be consciously aware that we are doing so.

Thus divine purpose basically says that the primary purpose of life is to discover God, form a relationship with him and learn more about his nature. Now, after this, there is another kind of purpose that is beneath divine purpose in the “purpose hierarchy” but is always aligned with it. This purpose is one I like to call soul purpose. This purpose is more specific than divine purpose and is chosen primarily by your soul or higher self before your physical birth. This purpose is much more specific about the particular ways in which you will experience the process of becoming throughout your life. For example your soul may wish to experience more deeply what it’s like to have faith. In this case, a life will be planned for you that revolves around this concept. Your soul could also wish to experience what it’s like to become a great singer. In this case, a life will be planned for you that revolves around learning to sing and becoming better and better at it and so on. The soul is free to choose which particular themes it wishes to focus on as it relates to experiencing the nature of God in the realm of becoming. Again, it makes choices related to this desire before we’re born. Although this is not to say that the lower self spirit has no choice in this matter. I believe that when the spirit is created and is about to be born into this world, the soul and spirit both work together on specific goals they wish to reach in life that are related to some aspect of becoming that the soul and spirit are both interested in. Once these agreements have been made, the spirit is born into a physical body and the higher self, which is tethered to that spirit, helps to keep its lower self on track with the goals they both agreed upon.

The last kind of purpose we have, which is lowest on the purpose hierarchy, is one I like to call self purpose. This purpose is the one that we simply give to ourselves while alive in the physical world. Although divine purpose and soul purpose are very important and constitute pretty much the entire reason we were even born into this world, they are still not meant to, in a sense, take up our whole lives. By this I mean that the spirit still has freedom to find its own purpose and meaning in life as well. In fact it’s encouraged and expected to. This will generally manifests itself in the form of various activities that you find interesting in your life and decide to spend a period of your time focusing on and enjoying. For me, a good example of self purpose that I’ve given to myself has to do with learning to make music. I don’t believe that this is a part of my divine purpose or soul purpose and I’ve always known that I had absolutely no aptitude for making music. However, I was simply interested enough in this activity that I pushed myself to learn how to do it despite knowing that I’d never be truly good at it. Of course self purpose needn’t be something the spirit is so dedicated to in this manner either. Self purpose can also be something as small and short lived as wanting to try out a new restaurant. This shows that self purpose can really anything we want it to be and can change all the time as our desires and interests change. Overall self purpose is very important because it allows the spirit to express itself in a way that was not predetermined by God or the higher self. However, self purpose should not be put above divine purpose and soul purpose. When this occurs, various problems are created.

Divine purpose and soul purpose are always aligned with each other so focusing on one will generally make you aligned with the other. I’m not sure that it’s really possible to ever put soul purpose above divine purpose. However, it is possible to do this with self purpose. This is important to recognize because divine purpose and soul purpose will always lead the spirit back to a state of divinity and closeness to God. As a spirit is born into this world in a state of goodness and near perfection, it then becomes corrupted and less perfect in various ways throughout its life. From carrying out its divine purpose and soul purpose, the spirit is then redeemed and regains much of the goodness that it momentarily appeared to lose during its physical life time. This occurs through various stages of “becoming” for the spirit. In essence, the purpose of suffering and evil itself has been fulfilled. A kind of cycle from more goodness, to less goodness and back to more goodness again has been completed. This process generally always works the way it's supposed to when divine purpose and soul purpose are fulfilled. The only thing that can end up getting in the way of this process however is self purpose. Because the spirit is less perfect and can experience negativity, it can, in a sense, lose its way and chase self purpose. It can put self purpose above divine purpose and soul purpose and end up stuck in the part of the cycle of goodness that was referred to simply as the “less goodness” stage. When a spirit does this, we Christians generally refer to this as idolatry. This is ultimately a rather bad thing to do from a spiritual perspective.

The main reason for this is that self purpose will never end up contributing to your life or the world at the highest level of goodness. This is because self purpose is not directed by God and therefore cannot achieve the same degree of goodness that a purpose directed by God can. And since soul purpose is aligned with divine purpose, they both end up contributing to your life and the world in the most positive way in terms of your life’s totality. Furthermore, I believe that divine purpose also occurs on a more global scale in the sense that all of humanity has a collective goal or destination that they’re expected to reach. This is a directive from God himself. This goal is essentially the spiritual evolution of man. Humanity is expected to continually evolve by using the law of manifestation in conjunction with God’s spirit. This means that man will co-create this reality with God more and more until the most perfect and heavenly world possible is created. In the same way the different aspects of yourself and God can co-create during dreams and NDEs, we all too can co-create with God in this physical world as well. This occurs whenever we hold the prolonged intention to serve God or act in a way that is in accord with his will. This ends up allowing us to manifest a reality that is aligned with his “grand plan” for humanity. This plan is essentially the blueprint that describes the path humanity will take to reach the most perfect society. Each one of us has a very special place in this grand plan that is not inconsequential. All of us have a unique purpose in life that is meant to contribute in a unique way to this grand plan.

I believe that we are all also born with special gifts from God that enable us to contribute uniquely to God’s grand plan. For example some people are born with the gift of compassion. Although we all feel compassion to some degree and can charge this emotion as much as we want to in theory, some people are born with the natural ability to charge this emotion much more easily and superfluously than usual. This means their subconscious has a natural affinity for charging compassion to very high levels. This kind of gift would allow this person to choose a path in life that helps the world by doing something that requires a lot of compassion to do properly. This could be helping animals, taking care of the sick and elderly, looking after the disabled and so on. On the other hand a person could be born with a natural gift for singing or making music and could then use their gift to entertain and emotionally stimulate society, in a positive way, through their music. Whatever the case, each person has very special gifts from God that they will be able to use to contribute in the manifestation of God’s grand plan. I believe that each person’s divine purpose and soul purpose will be centered around their gifts in terms of the main role they role play in contributing to God’s plan. The spirit will even be born into a body whose genetics favor these gifts by virtue of its ground state charge. Now because discovering divine purpose and soul purpose are all part of the process of becoming, we’re not generally told directly what these purposes are but we are generally inspired and directed at the subconscious level to carry out these purposes throughout our lives. It could be the case that our entire lives revolve around one main purpose, such as discovering a new theory like Einstein did with relativity, or consists of multiple different purposes meant to be carried out in separate stages throughout our life time. Once one main purpose is fulfilled, we are directed to move on to the next one.

Again everything pretty much works out the way it's supposed to when the spirit is aligned with God and the soul. The problem however occurs when the spirit is not aligned and focuses too much on some particular self purpose that it has assigned itself. I believe, for example, that my purpose in life, at least one of the main ones, was to write these books and I have actually had many spiritual experiences related to it. In order to study the subconscious mind and write these books however, I’ve had to put off a great deal of things I personally wanted to do such as making more music, working out, hanging out with friends and so on. There was pretty much no way that I could do all of these things and have the same degree of focus needed to study the subconscious in the manner that I did. I know this because I have tried to various times early on and found that I simply could not. All of these other personal activities for amusement simply eat up way too much of my attention and leave less of it left over to charge my subconscious to use the level transcendental intelligence needed to understand the subconscious more deeply. My normal intelligence of course would not have been anywhere near sufficient to more deeply understand the subconscious mind and metaphysics. Thus I had to put off a lot of personal interests in favor of studying the subconscious and writing these two books. Another way of saying that is that is to say I had to put my divine purpose and soul purpose ahead of my self purpose. Had I focused more on self purpose, I may not have been able to fulfill my divine purpose and soul purpose.

When a person does not fulfill the role they were meant to play in God’s grand plan, then the plan readjusts itself in response. This is a truth that I believe was revealed in the NDE of a man from Connecticut named Jim Bruton. This lack of fulfillment can occur when a person is too focused on self purpose and begins to idolize various activities, experiences or objects in this world. For example a person who is way too focused on wealth, sex, fame, physical attraction, even tv or video games and so on can engage in idolatry. This is because there is only such much attention that you can put into these desires before they start become more important to you than your divine purpose and soul purpose. When this occurs, your subconscious charges accordingly and it becomes harder for you to feel compulsions that God and the higher self plant within you that are meant to guide you into fulfilling your divine and soul purposes. This makes sense according to the law of manifestation since the local reality you manifest through these idolatrous intentions would be one where you feel less strongly compelled by divine compulsions since those would make it harder for you to create the reality your idolatrous intentions are saying you want. Similarly, when you charge a lot negative subconscious energy, this too weakens your ability to feel compulsions that higher beings plant to guide you. Thus when you feel very angry, hateful, sad or jealous for a prolonged period of time, this can make it harder for you to fulfill your life’s purpose. By the same token, when you constantly give in to temptations and focus on forms of self gratification that push spiritual energy away, this too will weaken your ability to be guided by higher beings. Thus negative pleasure based actions such as watching porn, doing drugs, drinking alcohol or even watching too much tv or playing video games too much can cause you not to fulfill your purpose.

Negative entities, more than anything, seem to be dedicated to causing people not to fulfill their purpose. This is done through spiritual attacks which cause them to experience temptation more strongly, become confused as to what their “supposed” to do or about some aspect of God’s nature. However, when a person remains focused on God, holds the intention to have a relationship with him and focuses on activities that bring spiritual energy in, then it becomes easier for them to be influenced by divine compulsions that guide them into finding their life’s purpose. Thus even activities such as going to church or some place of worship, meditating on universal love and inner peace or helping others can actually help you to find your life’s purpose. Simply charging spiritual energy at the subconscious level directly of course, which many people don’t know how to do, would also help you to find your life’s purpose. I often hear many young people, and some older people too, complain that they feel like their life has no meaning and like there is simply no purpose in it. I believe this generally occurs because that individual has, perhaps unconsciously, not been receptive to the divine subconscious compulsions that have been, and are still, guiding them to fulfill their purpose. Perhaps they are either too caught up in idolizing things in this world to notice these compulsions, have been stuck at a low subconscious frequency for too long a time or are simply so caught up in the illusion of the physical world that the idea of there being anything else is inconceivable to them.

Either way, if person feels like their life has no meaning, their best bet is to pray to God and ask him to reveal their purpose to them. Although I do not believe God will generally tell them directly, I believe he will give them hints. This may include some symbolic dream giving you an idea of your role in God’s grand plan. You must then remain focused on your relationship with God as you continue to pursue this purpose as the two will always be aligned. Personally, I’ve felt like I’ve always known my purpose to some degree. I think it has always been there as a kind of intuitive knowing at the subconscious level. I didn’t necessarily know the specifics of what I was “supposed to do” but I feel like I’ve almost always had a very general kind of understanding or overview of it. I’m not sure if everyone has this same intuitive knowing but I wanted to mention it here as a possibility as well. Thus if you’re unsure of what your life’s purpose is on a conscious level, you may have some degree of understanding it on a subconscious level and may have even had this inner knowing your whole life. Perhaps you thought this inner understanding was simply wishful thinking or your mind playing tricks on you. But it is possible that this is not the case. You may begin to better understand your life’s purpose by focusing on this feeling and intuition more deeply and understanding the events in your life in the context of this knowing.

Before moving on, one last concept about the nature of purpose that I’d like to mention is that it may also have a component of timing to it. By this, I mean that it may be the case that you have to fulfill a certain amount of goals in your life, as agreed upon by your spirit and soul before birth, by a certain point in your life in order to achieve the rest of your agreed upon goals. Carrie Kohan stated she was visited by an angel when she was younger and was told that she had been resisting her life’s path and had only one more chance to fulfill it. She was told to go to a very particular meeting with a spiritual group she would be invited to meet up with. It was explained to her that if she did not do this, she would miss out on her life’s main purpose and would have to live out the rest of her life in insipid mediocrity – paraphrasing of course. Recall from the section on quantum reality shifting in the previous chapter that our experience of time is probably really just the act of shifting through different possible realities as a result of our choices. It is possible that there are certain checkpoint like events in our lives that must be fulfilled by certain times in order for the realities, or timelines, where we fulfill the rest of our purpose to remain possible to manifest. It’s unclear though if Carrie Kohan’s situation was unique in the sense that the rest of her life would be so heavily affected by her decision to miss one of these checkpoints.

Perhaps even if we miss these checkpoints, we still have other opportunities carry out our purpose in other ways. It is difficult to say but, either way, it is always best to pray to God for more information about your purpose if you feel that you do not know yours. One thing I would like to say though is that I believe I have missed one of these checkpoints in my life for one of my purposes. Me and another person were both getting divine messages about a plan we were both supposed to carry out. We also both got messages that we were supposed to carry this plan sooner rather than later. Well, although we did make efforts to try to carry out the plan sooner in response to these messages, it seems that it was still not soon enough. This is because one day I randomly started getting divine messages to carry out a new plan. The other person involved also got divine messages indicating the plan had changed. This was quite confusing at first but later it had become clear that we'd both missed the "deadline" to carry out the plan. Since then, I've gotten messages pertaining to the new plan and that I was not able to go back to the old plan. One thing I've noticed about God and higher beings in this regard is that they will not beg or harass you to carry out a plan. They will give you warnings if you are close to passing a deadline but they simply will let you do so if you choose to keep procrastinating. And when you do pass this deadline, they will simply let you know and go from there. In my case, they simply gave me a new plan and then started giving me messages about that. I suspect that while every person has a very important and sacred role to play in God's grand plan for humanity, it is also true that no one is irreplaceable. Should they decide not to carry out God's grand plan, then the plan will simply readjust itself and their role will be given to someone else.

I should also mention that this similarly applies to our God given gifts. As mentioned earlier, God gives each person certain gifts that they're meant to use to carry out their role in God's grand plan. However, they will not be forced to use their gifts for good in this manner. They will still be allowed to use their gifts for evil if they wish to do so – of course they will have to answer for that choice at a later time. When this occurs though, a person can cause a lot of damage in the world because God made them so formidable with respect to some particular gift. For example it is possible that I could have used the information in this book to take advantage of others for money and personal gain. However, thankfully I was not stupid enough to walk down that path. I suspect that many world leaders, who were given the gift of being an inspiring leader, actually use their gift for selfish reasons meant to enrich themselves rather than helping the people. For example imagine what hitler could have accomplished had he chosen to bring people closer to God rather than push them away from God. Similarly, how much damage could Martin Luther king Jr have caused had he chosen not to bring people closer to God but push them away from him?

LAW OF HAPPINESS

The next law I’d like to talk about is a bit of an offshoot of the law of purpose but should ultimately, I believe, be thought of as a singular law in and of itself. This law has to do with the way an overall sense of lasting happiness and satisfaction works. One thing I’ve noticed since focusing on the spiritual trade off effect, the both ends principle and going deeper into my relationship with God, is the particular way in which people often chase happiness. Most people tend to think about the things they really like and want in the moment and then either go seek it out or simply spend much of their time desiring but not pursuing it as they may feel there is something in the way that’s preventing them from obtaining it. And among those who do chase their desires, there are of course some that put a great deal of effort in to this search while others put very little into it. But one thing that I’ve noticed happens very often is that people, once they finally reach some desired thing, find that what they’ve wanted for a very long time is really not all that it was cracked up to be. While they can find some appreciable degree of joy in this thing they’ve always wanted at first, it rarely ever lasts for very long. All too often, they come to find that the joy they were chasing could only be experienced temporarily through this desired thing. But then why does this occur? What is the key to obtaining true happiness? Well we’ve mostly already discussed this in previous chapters regarding the three things you need to be happy overall – pleasure, purpose and a relationship with God. However I’d like to now talk about this concept again but more in terms of what I believe to actually be metaphysical law.

First, once again I’d like you to recall that it was mentioned that people need a sense of purpose to feel truly happy. Simply feeling good all the time is not enough for us to be satisfied, especially when we feel good through negative pleasures. This concept was discussed in chapter 3 and refers to pleasures that tempt us and therefore push away spiritual energy as we experience them. Positive pleasures are those that are aligned with God and bring spiritual energy in as we experience them. However even these, on their own, may not necessarily be enough to fully satisfy us. For example if I were to charge the feeling of inner peace all day, then this would be a positive pleasure that I’d experience more and more strongly as my subconscious charges at this frequency. Yet, no matter how much peace I feel, I likely would not feel completely happy and satisfied through this feeling alone. At some point, I’m going to feel like I actually need to do something more meaningful. Something that helps others and the all the world in some way. This is a natural feeling that makes sense if we associate the feeling of purpose with our connection to God. For example as we get closer and closer to God at the subconscious level, we tend to have a greater and greater affinity for feeling all positive emotions more easily. Well, included in this list of all possible positive emotions is the emotional feeling of purpose. Similarly as we move away from God, we feel less of that positive feeling of purpose and therefore less meaning. This is a feeling that we often describe as a sense of emptiness. Thus getting closer to God not only means feeling pleasure from positive emotions in a more simple way, it also means becoming more engaged with purpose and feeling positive pleasure in a more earnest kind of way. But it won’t just be any kind of purpose that allows you to feel this purposed based pleasure as you move closer to God. Only when you pursue divine purpose and soul purpose will you feel purposed based pleasure in its most pure form.

As mentioned earlier, when you charge lots of spiritual energy, you will be more receptive to messages from God and the higher self that guide you in to finding your purpose. However, purpose is often antithetical to pure pleasure. It doesn’t necessarily have to be, especially for positive pleasure, but it often is. This can even be due to limitations from the body. For example when your purpose requires you to engage in lots of physically and mentally taxing work, like writing a book, you may find it much more difficult to charge positive emotional pleasures such as inner peace and universal love. In fact you may feel downright exhausted and emotionally drained from the effort. But then which one of these comes first? As I draw nearer to God, do I prioritize positive pleasure or purpose if I can only pick one and both are components of God’s nature? I believe the answer is actually purpose. This world is not perfect and we are not expected to hold on to feelings that reflect a perfect state of positive emotion. I believe our relationship with God calls us to fulfill some purpose, or purposes, that may require a great deal of work to be done. During the time we’re focused on doing all of this work, we may not be able to feel as much positive pleasure as we could if we were not focused on doing that work. In spite of this fact, I believe we are called still to prioritize the work because this work will actually help others. Forgoing the opportunity to feel euphoric emotional pleasure for one’s self in favor of carrying out the will of God is a form of self sacrifice for the greater good, which is also a quality of God’s nature. When we prioritize our own emotional pleasure over purpose, then we will start to feel a growing sense of that emptiness feeling that reflects the absence of purpose. If we are still pursuing our purpose but are not giving it that much effort or attention because we’re so focused on pleasure, then we may also feel a sense of guilt in doing so. I believe this subconscious response occurs as a result of the extreme sensitivity of spiritual energy. When you’re not properly dedicating enough time and effort to your purpose, your spiritual energy will actually drop in a way that you will notice by virtue of the growing feeling of emptiness, guilt or a similar feeling.

This is very important because these negative feelings will dampen your overall ability to feel truly happy and satisfied. In other words, finding true happiness actually involves your true purpose in life. You cannot be truly happy, yet not engaged in your purpose at the same time. But then we can elaborate on this even further. Purpose of course comes in three different flavors which we discussed earlier. Divine purpose and soul purpose are always aligned so focusing on one is pretty much the same as focusing on both. Again the issue comes in when it comes to self purpose. Self purpose may or may not be aligned with divine purpose and soul purpose and again will cause problems when it is not. We spoke about many of these problems in the previous section. In this section, I’d like to focus on the aspect of these problems that involves our overall sense of happiness. I believe that spiritual energy is so sensitive that it can not only tell you when you’re focusing too much on self purpose, it can even tell you when you’re properly focusing on your divine purpose and soul purpose. This occurs through the purity of the feeling of purpose that you feel when you’re actually doing that which you were meant to do. Recall from chapter 3, it was mentioned that you will know when your intention is correctly focused on God by virtue of how positively pure you feel emotionally when you do. You can’t get a more pure feeling when you focus on anything else. I believe a similar phenomenon occurs when you are focused on pursuing your divine purpose and soul purpose.

When you focus on some goal in general and pursue it, your spirit’s need for purpose is fulfilled and you’re able to experience purpose based joy. However, what’s important here is the degree to which the spirit’s need for satisfaction through purpose is appeased. Even a negative purpose can still satisfy this aspect of the spirit’s needs to a degree. However, how much purpose based joy and satisfaction the spirit is able to feel will depend on the specific goal underlying that purpose. Self purpose, no matter what it is, will only ever satisfy the spirit’s need for purpose so much. To feel the highest and most potent form of purpose based joy, you simply have to be pursuing goals related to your divine purpose and soul purpose. You can’t get a more pure feeling of purpose based joy by focusing on any other kind of purpose. In fact pursing your divine purpose and soul purpose also charges spiritual energy and causes you to feel the most pure feeling of joy possible. This is in spite of the fact that purpose based joy felt from spiritual energy may, at times, be antithetical to more euphoria based emotional pleasure that results from charging spiritual energy. When you focus too much on self purpose, called idolatry, this actually ends up pushing spiritual energy away which you will recognize by how you feel. Thus if you’re still unsure about what your purpose is in life, you can, on top of praying to God, also try to focus on what makes you feel the greatest sense of joy as it relates to the feeling of purpose. When you focus on that which you were meant to do, you should have a subconscious response that is very pure and tells you that “this just feels right”. It will be easy to focus on God and this purpose at the same time as they will be aligned. Put another way, it will be easy to charge spiritual energy while focused on this purpose.

All of this leads to what I like to think of as the metaphysical law of happiness. This is basically a law which states that you will always experience the greatest state of happiness when your intentions are in complete alignment with God’s will. Put in another more scalable way, we can say that the more aligned your intentions are with God’s will, the more joy you will experience. The less aligned your intentions are with God’s will, the less joy you will experience. Now, on its face, this kind of sounds like a no brainer. Of course you will experience more joy by being more aligned in some way with God as God is the source of all positivity in reality. However, as simple as this law is, it is very often overlooked. And to be fair there is some decent amount of complexity to it that is not necessarily all that obvious to the average person. For example, the dichotomy between purpose and pleasure. Most people often don’t realize that a major part of happiness is pursuing some goal with a sense of purpose and that this will often make it harder for them to also experience more potent states of easy euphoric pleasure. These more euphoric pleasurable states are important too, but not more so than purpose. There is essentially a balancing act that you have to play between them that most people do not fully recognize on a conscious level. Furthermore the happiness that you do get from purpose, is only most potently felt when following your divine purpose and soul purpose. Self purpose is also a part of the happiness equation too, but that must also be properly balanced with divine purpose and soul purpose. You cannot dedicate more time to self purpose than divine purpose and soul purpose and still experience the highest and most pure state of happiness. And even if you do dedicate less time to self purpose, it must still be aligned with God’s will.

For example I cannot pursue the goal of reaching $10,000 by robbing others and experience the highest state of happiness so long as I am also, if it is still even possible in this case, spending more time pursuing my divine purpose and soul purpose. I can only experience the highest state of happiness when self purpose is also aligned with God’s nature. Examples of positive goals that may come from self purpose include practicing to become a better musician, working out to be more healthy and physically appealing, traveling, writing poetry, playing sports, studying some field of knowledge you've taken an interest in and so on. When you dedicate most of your attention to pursuing divine purpose and soul purpose but also pursue a self purpose that is aligned with God in your spare time, then you will always experience the highest possible state of overall happiness. This includes the balance between purpose, which can often cause you to feel stressed, and euphoric pleasure, which is generally easier to experience when you're working less. This also takes in to account the fact that divine purpose and soul purpose won’t necessarily always apply in the same way throughout your life. For example a child would probably have much more time to dedicate to self purpose as their sense of divine purpose and soul purpose have not yet fully developed. Similarly a senior citizen may have more time to focus on self purpose as they may have already completed most of the work they were meant to complete by that particular time in their lives. And even during middle age, there may be prolonged periods of time where you’re more free to focus on your self purpose. You would of course still carry out your divine purpose regularly by living your life in a way that honors your relationship with God such as forgiving others, engaging in altruism, going to places of worship and by charging spiritual energy regularly. However, when circumstances change and divine purpose and soul purpose come knocking again, in a way that will take up most of your time, you must then switch priorities and make pursing your divine and soul purposes top priority. Again, as long as you maintain the proper balance you will always be happy.

This metaphysical law is how I’ve come to start thinking about happiness overall, so you can imagine how the world looks to someone who thinks like me. I feel like I constantly see people chase happiness in a way that quite clearly violates this metaphysical law all the time. They do this and then wonder why they’re still so unhappy in the end. In my mind, I think to myself “well of course you’re unhappy, what did you think was going to happen”. For example people will often ignore or disbelieve in the concept of divine purpose and a relationship with God, chase some kind of self purpose that they’ve given themselves and then wonder why they feel so unfulfilled, often even after they’ve reached the goal that they were chasing. From my perspective it looks as though a lot people are just sort of stuck in that endless loop, for a great deal of their lives in many cases. They seem, usually without even consciously realizing it, to just have so much faith in their ability to find full and lasting happiness in their own self purpose. And no matter how many times they end up not achieving this after years of effort, they just sort of reaffirm their faith in self purpose and try again. It never occurs to them that there could possibly be some missing ingredient, such as a relationship with God, that’s required for true lasting happiness. Often this idea is shunned and the quest for happiness through self purpose is continued.

Now, do some people find true happiness in life without God? For example are there atheist or non-religious people out there who you might say are truly happy? Well the quick and direct answer in my opinion no, but it’s also a bit more nuanced than that. I believe it is still possible for an atheist to have a relationship with God by virtue of how often they listen to that feeling and voice inside them that tells them when something is right, when it is wrong and when to pursue some course of action. The more they listen to that voice or inner knowing, then the more they are aligning themselves with God even though they do not consciously name this inner voice or intuition God. In all honesty, I don’t think it really matters what you consciously decide to name this inner voice so long as you’re following it. If you think about it, atheists don’t usually think it’s ok to pursue evil actions all the time just because they think they’ve successfully managed to convinced themselves that there is no God. They still have a moral compass and often try to follow it, that in itself is a reflection of their relationship with God. Although it will be difficult for them to go further into their relationship with God if they do not fully acknowledge it on a conscious level. This is why I say an atheist could never feel be truly happy but acknowledge that they can still feel a good chunk of happiness too. How much so, depends on how much they listen to the positive inner voice that guides them.

Another thing I’ve noticed is how much faith people place on money and power to make them happy. I think this is especially true here in the United States, the country I live in. Many people will chase circumstances where they have large amounts of money, the overall ability to have nice things and the ability to experience life from a much more financially free and wealthy perspective. Sometimes people will chase this particular lifestyle their whole lives. In some cases they will even reach it and then do everything they can to maintain it, even if it means engaging in unscrupulous activities. And very often, if not always, the result is still the same. They never truly experience lasting satisfaction and happiness. No matter how much wealth they have or how many financially expensive experiences they engage in, there’s still a sense of emptiness or incompleteness. There’s still some void in them that they feel like is not being filled through these worldly pleasures and like it simply can’t be. This void will feel as though it is growing larger and larger the longer a person goes relying on the pursuit of worldly pleasures for purpose based joy. And when they finally begin to focus on purpose that’s related to helping others and building positive relationships with them, this void will finally start to feel like it’s disappearing. Of course as people go further and further in the direction of things that feel like they’re filling this void, they will eventually just find God. The void of course being there from not focusing on God in the first place and only feeling the most filled when one is heavily focused on him. However, when people are stubborn and continuously focus on their own selfishness and place their faith in the ability of the material world to make them happy, they ultimately never truly find it. Buddha himself recognized this and actually left his life of riches as he was aware that it was holding him back from finding true happiness.

Another area where I’ve noticed people try to violate the metaphysical law of happiness in the self help community. In these communities, people will often chase self empowerment or spirituality in a very general sense but not in a way that’s truly related to God. Gurus in these communities often preach messages that focus on achieving lasting happiness by pursing one’s dreams and desires. People who follow these gurus are told that they have the power to change reality through their thoughts and should use this power to seek their wildest dreams and fantasies. In some cases, they are even told that they are gods themselves. Now, on its surface, there’s probably not too much wrong with telling a person things that make them feel empowered to take control over their lives. However, the problem with this messaging is in its lack of focus on God. We humans are, by definition, imperfect. We do not have the intelligence to truly know what will be best for us. We can try a whole bunch of things in a trial and error like fashion, but ultimately we can never truly know for sure. Furthermore, per the law of manifestation, we’re never really going to be able to manifest a reality where we’re truly happy in a way that doesn’t include God – it's impossible. This is because God is the source of all positivity and we, by definition, can’t manifest some reality, that is further away from him, where we still have full and lasting happiness. If you could find happiness by moving away from God, then this would indicate that there is some other source of positivity that you’re moving toward. Since there is no other source, it follows that you cannot ever find true lasting happening by pursuing actions that don’t bring you closer to God.

This is the perspective that self help gurus rarely ever provide. They often give people very vague instructions about how to be happy and then move on to simply inspiring them to believe that they can do anything they put their mind to. When they still feel like something is missing in their lives, self-help gurus just continue to inspire them more and the vicious cycle continues. Very little is preached about spiritual growth such as in the form of resisting temptation, forgiving others, helping others and so on. A more human interpretation of morality is expected to be followed as one’s goals are pursued. But human law is not divine law and it is perfectly possible that a person pursuing what their heart desires could not be entirely aligned with divine law. And if it isn’t, then they won’t be able to move closer to God and therefore will not be able to find true lasting happiness, in spite of what the self-help guru told them. In closing, I’d like to mention a famous quote from Jim Carry that sums up much of what I said about the ability of the self and the material world to bring you true and lasting happiness alone. He is quoted with saying “I think everybody should get rich and famous and have everything they ever dreamed of so they can see that that’s not the answer”. I tend to agree with this but I would only add that God is the answer that people seek, whether they are consciously aware of it or not.

LAW OF KNOWING

The last metaphysical law I’d like to talk about has to do with our limited capacity to know things about reality. Recall from our discussion on the law of spiritual relativity that much of reality in the spiritual and metaphysical world is constantly changing in response to who we are, just as our subconscious is constantly changing in response to our intentions. This even includes changes that occur as a result of our higher selves, which we have no control over and little awareness of. This is why so many NDEs can be so different from each other. They are the reflection of experiences that are occurring in the spiritual world and are the result of multiple different aspects of your self, God and perhaps other beings all co-creating in the experience that you’re having together. Similarly, spiritual experiences while still alive in the physical world will vary from person to person due to this metaphysical law. But then how can we truly know what’s real about the spiritual world if it is constantly changing so much in response to us? The subconscious, which is also metaphysical in nature, changes in response to our intentions but at least it does so in a way that we have enough control over to still be able to peer into its true objective nature. The metaphysical world in general though changes in a much more indeterminable way. Is it possible for us to ever obtain true objective knowledge about the metaphysical world as a result of this?

Well I believe the answer is possibly yes but also technically no. To understand this answer, I’d like to first recall an experience I had during my spiritual crisis that ultimately changed the way I think about knowledge as it relates to the spiritual and metaphysical. Now, as you can probably surmise by now, I like to use reasoning, logic and experience to investigate the nature of the spiritual. I’ve done this to varying degrees throughout my entire life. It has largely been a past time of mine for many years and rarely gets old to me. As I came to learn more about God and the subconscious mind, I started to believe that I could really get know just about anything about the spiritual world that I set my mind to. Well during this spiritual crisis, I remember wanting to know certain things about the spiritual world but not truly knowing how to go about it. This bothered me quite a bit for a while. I remember one day, before I understood more about the higher self and the nature of dreams, waking up and having this intuitive understanding about what I was doing that was, for lack of a better word, simply wrong. I felt like there was a voice or presence in my head that was giving me this understanding. I had really bad sleep apnea during that time and had trouble remembering my dreams due to constantly waking up from not being able to breathe while sleeping. However I believe the dream I had that day also contained symbolism about this concept. This voice in my head, which I could hear upon waking up, had told me that I was trying too hard to rely on my own understanding and that I was not trusting in God. When I thought about this for a moment, I realized that this was true.

I’d kept assuming that I could potentially know everything there was to know about reality, physical or metaphysical, with some amount of applied effort. I kept trying to resolve my concerns by pressuring myself to figure out things that seemed to be beyond the scope of what I could truly study in a more experimental way on my own. The thought then occurred to me that there may be some aspects of reality that God simply does not allow me to know. But then what do I do in these cases? How can I resolve certain concerns I have regarding things God has not permitted me to know? Well the answer was quite clear to me as a result of this voice that I believe spoke to me, it was to simply trust in God. I had to simply accept that not everything could be known with intense and rigorous reasoning and determination, even though I’d felt I’d been very successful in learning about the subconscious with this approach. And for the things which I could not know on my own, I had to trust that God would either reveal this information to me when the time was right or that he might never reveal this information to me. And for that which he did not permit me to know, I simply had to trust in his reasoning for doing so and recognize that it must be for my benefit in some way. After obtaining this new perspective on the way knowledge works in relation to God, I decided to see if there were any scriptures that spoke about this concept in the bible. And sure enough, I immediately found one that said almost exactly what this voice had told me. Proverbs 3:5-6 basically states that we should not lean not on our own understanding but trust in God. To me, this is actually the most significant scripture in the bible because it directs one to seek out God for knowledge and direction. We are not expected to rely entirely on our own reasoning to understand God’s nature or other aspects of the metaphysical.

God will help us and direct us according to his will. We will always have the opportunity to figure out that which he permits us to know and, for that which he does not permit us to know, we must again trust that it is for our benefit. Since then I have followed this creed very much in my own life and have accepted that I can only know what God has permitted me to know. When I ask God for information about things I do wish to know, I trust whatever information he reveals. In some cases, I may only get a partial answer and in other cases I'll get a more complete answer. When I get a partial answer, I trust that there is a reason why God has not permitted me to know more and leave simply leave it at that. Similarly, there will be times when I believe I am receiving direction from God to take certain actions in the world. I may not know entirely why I’m being asked to do certain things, but, whatever the reason, I have become accustomed to doing so and trusting him that the end result will be for my greatest benefit. There’s no need to ask him why. This ultimately leads to the fifth and last metaphysical law of this chapter, the law of knowing. This is basically the metaphysical law which states that you can only truly know and trust information that is given to you by God. This also includes information received from higher beings which, as far as I know, are always acting in accord with God’s will. This is important to understand because metaphysical reality is constantly changing in a unique way relative to each person. There’s really no way for us to know what’s completely true about the metaphysical or not. Some people are told in NDEs for example that there is no sin and there is no hell while others are told the opposite. Some people have spiritual experiences and are given certain revelations that others are not. Should I act according to the revelations that others have received and not my own? I learned in my own life that the answer to this is no.

In my personal life, I have behaved in a way that I believe God was telling me not to as a result of listening to the spiritual experiences that others have had. And when I did this, I have felt that I let God down in a way and have since dedicated myself to only truly trusting what I believe God has revealed to me personally. God is a being with infinite intelligence and has his reasons for revealing what he does to others and not us or us and not others. It is not for us to try to fully understand everything that goes in the spiritual realm or why God chooses to do what he does. Again we must trust what God has revealed to us and live by that knowledge. We should still share that testimony with others and listen to others testimony as well, but I don’t believe that we should use these testimonies as a substitute for, or in place of, what God tells us and reveals to us directly. That being said, I do believe that God can speak to us directly at times through these testimonies. However, when this occurs, I believe you generally have an inner knowing that God is speaking to you personally through that person giving their testimony. This usually occurs after some prayer you made. However, outside of this, you should not assume that any testimony you hear is God speaking to you directly. It's always nice and interesting in a way to hear about the spiritual experiences of others and I believe we all should make an effort to hear about the spiritual testimony of others. But, at the end of the day, I believe the only true knowledge that we can trust about what’s real and what isn’t is that which God has revealed to us personally. This is the law of knowing. God has told me multiple things such as which church to go to when I was seeking one, not to have sex before marriage and even not to masturbate. I believe I’ve even received messages to read certain books and to travel in some cases. In each case, I trust these messages and have set out to follow them. I feel that I can always understand how they’ve benefited me more deeply when I follow these directions. I remember, after listening to so many different descriptions of God in NDEs, praying to God and basically asking him which version of God, as portrayed in these NDEs, should I focus on in my relationship with him. More specifically, I wanted to know how I should navigate my relationship with him.

I remember then having a dream later that night, or the next, and receiving my answer. In this dream, I was in this warehouse area and had these headphones on listening to a song that I really liked but hadn’t listened to in a very long time. It was no where on my mind during that time in my life but was suddenly now playing rather vividly in my dream. The song playing was “One Way Jesus” by Hillsong United. I realized then that this was how God had answered my prayer. I should focus on him through my relationship with Jesus – in fact it seemed like he was saying this was the only way to have a relationship with him. Since then though, I have never felt the need to ask this question again. I know that, regardless of how God appears to other people or what God tells them and what they tell us he said, God has told me to focus on Jesus. Therefore that’s what I’m going to do. I only need to trust in the answer that he revealed to me in accord with the law of knowing. Now it is possible that can I be deceived by some negative entity and trust in the wrong information? Well yes, but I believe that this only occurs when you don’t know God or have a strong relationship with him. I believe that if you truly seek out God and wish to gain knowledge from him, he will never abandon you or leave you to be deceived by negative entities. Many people who have gotten into new age and mediumship, often give their testimony of being saved from these deceptive experiences by God and Jesus Christ. When they truly seeked understanding from God during these experiences, he revealed to them that they were being deceived. This is why when people who don’t recognize God by virtue of their subconscious, which can’t be changed or altered, get into new age practices that don’t focus on God, they are so vulnerable to spiritual deception. It doesn’t work at all when a person has a strong relationship with God and Jesus Christ. They will immediately enlighten you to these entities’ deceptions right away. In the end, as long as you have an honest desire to seek God and to gain truth from him, he will direct you accordingly. He will not leave you to your own devices to be deceived in spite of the fact that you have reached out to him for truth. In fact this is a violation of the law of manifestation as it relates to knowledge.

This actually leads to another important aspect of the law of knowing that I think is worth emphasizing here and has to do with the way it often works when it comes to obtaining knowledge, spiritual or otherwise, through the law of manifestation. Recall that I mentioned that God and higher beings will rarely ever give you the answers you seek directly. Instead, they will simply assist in helping you to figure out the answer yourself. Again, the process of discovering spiritual truth is also a part of the experience of becoming which the soul enjoys and desires. Now the way in which God and higher beings assist you also works in conjunction with the law of manifestation. Namely when you pray to God to know the answer to some question, then constantly produce intentions that express your desire to know this answer, constantly take actions to find the answer and do so following the subconscious direction being given to you by God or higher beings – which you will often not even be aware of, then you will actually be manifesting a reality in which you know the answer to your question. In other words knowledge from God is often gained through the law of manifestation as well. When you have a strong relationship with God and constantly focus on his guidance for assistance in knowing something, as well as making a very strong effort yourself to know something, you actually still gain it through the mechanics of manifestation. In fact I believe that God or higher beings have occasionally inserted different kinds of knowledge into the superconscious and thus made it easier for people to discover that knowledge through the law of manifestation. I believe this occurred with the concept of quantum reality shifting mentioned in the previous chapter. When I came up with this idea, I started suddenly seeing different versions of this concept pop up online despite having never seen it before. It’s like other people similarly started having inspired thoughts about to this concept all around the same time. It’s like this information was planted somewhere in a way that made it more likely that people would start to think about it.

One last concept I’d like to mention about the law of knowing, that is actually a bit of a detour somewhat, has to do with the concept of “enlightenment”. In many different religions and spiritual communities, perhaps going back thousands of years, there has been this concept of growing in one’s spirituality and knowledge until some special pinnacle point has been reached. And once a person reaches and crosses this special threshold of spiritual growth and knowledge, they are now described by a new term – they are said to be “enlightened”. But what does it really mean to be enlightened? When is it appropriate to use this term? Although these kind of questions are probably inconsequential to most people, this is something that I’ve been thinking about recently as of the time of this writing. This is because I find that this term has different meanings to different people but is still a generally respected and revered state of being, especially in the spiritual community. People viewed as enlightened are trusted authorities on spiritual knowledge and are often sought after regarding direction on how to obtain greater spiritual growth and understanding. What I’ve noticed though is that there seems to be a kind of bifurcation in thought over what it means to be enlightened and that this split largely occurs along western and eastern religious and spiritual lines conceptually. What I mean by this is that more traditional western religious and spiritual communities tend to think one way about enlightenment and more traditional eastern religious and spiritual communities tend to think another way about enlightenment.

In Eastern cultures, enlightenment is generally thought to be a state of spiritual growth that is reflected by a specific set of moral behaviors an individual takes as well as by their inner knowledge and understanding. In Taoism and Buddhism for example, a person may be described as enlightened when they understand deeper spiritual truths about the nature of suffering, the purpose of life and how to live in a way that is more pure and synergistic with the tao. This is mostly fine but I do kind of have a problem with the way enlightenment is often portrayed in these communities. I respect other people’s beliefs of course and certainly do not intend to be offensive to them in any way. But I feel that this is important say. My problem with the way enlightenment is portrayed in these communities is that they do not include focus on a singular, even if a three in one trinity, God in the equation of enlightenment. I do not believe this is proper or appropriate. As we’ve been discussing throughout the chapter, God is pretty much the cornerstone of all spiritual growth and all metaphysical laws. It does not seem appropriate to me to talk about enlightenment in a way that does not include one’s relationship with God. That would be like talking about classical physics without including the concept of forces – you can’t do it. This lack of focus on God when it comes to enlightenment is what I believe occurs quite regularly in many eastern spiritual communities. This is not to say that God does not still speak to these individuals too and work in their lives. However, I do not believe that a person can truly reach higher levels of enlightenment if they do not consciously acknowledge and recognize their relationship with God. To not do so is not a true state of enlightenment in my opinion, at least not on a consciously aware level. By this I mean that the an individual could know a lot of spiritual truth that was taught to them by God and is about the nature of God but they would not know this to be the case. Without having a consciously aware relationship with God, it would be much harder to obtain the highest levels spiritual knowledge, growth and direction.

As mentioned earlier, walking the more spiritual path isn’t just about feeling positive emotions such as universal love and inner peace. It’s also about engaging in actions that reflect your divine and soul purposes. Furthermore it’s about obtaining and trusting in the knowledge that God gives you directly. I do not believe this can entirely be done in the proper way when one does not consciously acknowledge God and their relationship with him. Now on the flip side, here in the west, we have a different approach to the concept of enlightenment. Although we don’t generally use that specific term to describe spiritual growth, I believe it still aptly describes what we seek here as well. In more traditional western spiritual communities, such as in those derived from Christianity, Islam and Judaism, a singular God is acknowledged and is the primary focus for spiritual growth. This is a good thing and I agree with this way of thinking as it relates to enlightenment. I believe that God and Jesus Christ are the true paths to obtaining the level of spiritual growth and understanding that we might consider to be associated with “enlightenment”. But then there is also a problem that I see in these communities as well. It is actually kind of the opposite problem that the eastern communities have. In western communities, God is acknowledged but more metaphysical concepts such as raising ones frequency, recognizing one’s connection to the universe and obtaining a deeper understanding of metaphysics such as the nature of one’s spirit and soul and supernaturalism in general are less emphasized. All too often the scope of one’s spirituality is limited entirely to their own interpretation of the holy book or special texts that their religion follows. From there, quite a humanistic dogmatic set of behaviors and beliefs are emphasized. There is not a willingness to form a more open and active dialogue with God directly and allow him to personally teach them through their relationship with him. People in this community would rarely ever ask God a question about the metaphysical and wait for his assistance in helping them to discover the answer.

I believe that both sides actually get it wrong and that true “enlightenment” is actually a reflection of both components. When a person has truly reached a state of spiritual growth and knowledge that could be referred to as “enlightenment, this not only means reaching a higher state of inner peace and universal love as well as obtaining a deeper understanding about the nature of reality metaphysically, but it also means having a strong relationship with God. You speak to God regularly in your prayers, not even necessarily asking for something each time you do, and you try to live your life in a way that you honestly believe in your heart honors him and serves him. You often consider what God would want in different circumstances in your life and try to do things that you think would please him and you do this without necessarily being asked to by him or anyone else. But even still, when God does ask you to do something, you listen and follow the will of God every time. When you live your life in this manner, then one could truly say that you have achieved a state of enlightenment. At least that’s what I believe. I think this more complete form of enlightenment is also demonstrated in the life that Jesus lived. Not only did Jesus preach the importance of love and peace and provide deeper more metaphysical teachings about the spirit but he also stressed the importance of focusing on God and aligning yourself with his will. I think in the modern world, we too must take this same approach to our spiritual growth. We should not become too mired in the trenches of what man would call “religion” and we should also not become too heavily focused on concepts of love and peace outside of the context of God, our relationship to him and our divine and soul purposes. Both approaches should be emphasized in one’s pursuit of spiritual growth and enlightenment.

STAGES OF A RELATIONSHIP WITH GOD

Before ending this chapter, and the book itself, I’d like to first revisit some topics related to our relationship with God and, in the last section, will discuss an amazing experience I had with Jesus. Now over the years, as I've written these books and have attempted to draw nearer to God more and more, I believe that my relationship with him has evolved somewhat. I felt it important to take a moment to briefly talk about this evolution for those who might be interested in this.

In focusing on my own experiences and learning about those of others through their testimony, I’ve come to believe that one’s relationship with God generally goes through what you might think of as various stages. The “zeroth” stage is the one you have before you come to God and become more aware of him. This is the stage that everyone starts in so I don’t really think of it as even being a main stage. The actual first stage is one you might think of as the discovery stage. This is when you’re first coming to God and basically getting to know him on a consciously aware level. Usually this occurs when you make a sincere prayer, often in difficult circumstances, to know more about God and requests that he help you get to know him more. It is an extremely sincere gesture that you make purely on the grounds of genuine faith. When you do so, God will then respond in some way that lets you know that he is there and has heard your prayer. Once you have recognized this, you begin to pray more to him and receive his responses. This newfound dialogue allows you to get to know God personally and understand more about his nature. I described this experience for myself in chapter 4. I should note that it may be the case that this first stage also occurs during great times of spiritual distress as well. I’ve heard of testimonies where the individual has gotten themselves quite deep into new age and started having experiences with negative entities as a result. In these circumstances, it is explained that God, often in the form of Jesus Christ, appeared to the individual and helped deliver them from this spiritual crisis. In fact this can sometimes even occur in the form of an NDE. However, once a person has embraced God and expresses desire to know more about him, they will continue to do so through this newfound dialogue.

An interesting quality to this first stage of a relationship with God is that one may experience a relatively large amount of supernatural experiences as a result. This can range from visions, to inner knowings, hearing a voice in your mind and even seeing supernatural phenomena while awake. During this period of time you will likely also notice that you’re able to feel positive emotions much more easily. In fact you will likely describe this time as feeling the presence of God. This will feel like a very new feeling if you’re not used to charging spiritual energy. These are the experiences that I’ve had when first coming to God many years ago. After reading about the testimonies of others, I’ve actually noticed that others seem to have these experiences as well when first coming to God. What I’ve also read about and have noticed to a limited degree in my life, is that these supernatural experiences tend to slow down a little during the second phase of one’s relationship with God. I like to think of the second stage as the more faith based phase. This phase is quite difficult and has a great deal of challenges. During this phase, I believe that God does not make his presence as easily known to you and it may even seem like you feel his presence less in your life. This occurs because you’ve learned more about God’s nature and his ways during discovery phase. Think of the discovery phase like a training wheels phase where God makes it very easy for you to understand his messages and feel his presence. However, during the faith based phase, you will be expected to lean more on what you’ve learn about God during the discovery phase. This is a part of the process of spiritual growth – being able to follow God and act in ways that you believe are aligned with his wishes without him giving you so much direction like in the first phase.

Though this is not to say that he ever stops giving you direction when you seek it, I actually don’t believe that he ever does. Furthermore your higher self is pretty much always there giving you directions that are aligned with his wishes in your dreams and otherwise as well, whether you pray or not. However, these messages from God are just not as easy to perceive as the ones you got in the discovery phase. Those messages were made overly easy to interpret and understand. The ones you receive during the faith based phase will require you to fall back on what God has taught you to more fully understand them. I’ve come to believe in this phase because I’ve noticed that many people will often say that they no longer feel God’s presence as strongly a certain amount of time after sincerely coming to God. They will say that they felt his presence very strongly in the beginning but stopped feeling it so much after a while. They often think that they’ve done something wrong to cause this. I have read about this occurrence enough times to conclude that this is probably just a natural part of having a relationship with God. It was a little different for me because I knew enough about spirituality to know that I was going to feel the presence of God less whenever I engaged in certain negative activities, such as watching porn. However once I’d learned how to charge my spiritual energy, it was always easy for me to feel what I believed was the presence of God. Of course I still needed to stop watching porn during this time as well to maintain that feeling of closeness to God. The only real time that I felt like I couldn’t feel the presence of God of was when I had really bad sleep apnea and couldn’t charge my subconscious properly.

Around this time, I felt anxiety for pretty much the whole day and didn’t know why. I simply assumed that I had disappointed God and that he was punishing me. However, during this time, I would make incredibly sincere prayers to God. And, when I'd done this, I would get these very short moments of clarity where I could feel the loving and peaceful presence of God very strongly and understood that he hadn’t left me. But then it would be gone a few moments later and I’d feel powerful anxiety again. I then started to get these intuitive understandings about the importance of faith and even started receiving seemingly random messages online about faith. I then started to believe that part of why I was experiencing these events was because I needed to learn to have more faith in God and Jesus Christ. If somebody had told me back then that I didn’t yet have a strong faith in Jesus and that I needed to work on it, I would’ve absolutely denied it and told them that they were crazy. But after my experience with sleep apnea, I can now see that they would’ve been right. During that time, I always focused on God through my ability to charge spiritual energy. Feeling closer to God was as simple as charging spiritual energy, which I could always do. But that’s not real faith. I was trusting in a feeling more than I was trusting in his whole nature as he’s taught me up to that point. The moment I lost my ability to charge, my faith crumbled into a million a pieces. I then realized during this time, from praying to God, that I needed to learn the importance of trusting in God and believing in him even when it’s hard to feel his presence or even like I can’t feel his presence.

Of course once I realized I had sleep apnea and resolved it, I could charge normally again. But I realized this valuable lesson about faith during the short period of time that I could not properly charge my subconscious energy. During the faith based phase of your relationship with God, it is very important to use what God has taught you about him and act in ways that reflect that understanding. Another phase of one’s relationship with God is the fear based phase. I don’t believe this phase is actually brought on by God but is actually a common psychological phenomenon that happens when we’re pursuing God. This happened to me when I decided to really come to God and stop doing things that pushed spiritual energy away. I just wanted to choose God all the time and never consciously choose to do anything that I knew would weaken my connection to him. Well, as a result of desiring this, I began to become much more focused on my actions, particularly those we Christians would refer to as sins. I began to spend an inordinate amount of time thinking about my own sins and how much I wanted to avoid engaging in new ones. When I had severe anxiety from sleep apnea, I thought that I had sinned too much and God decided to punish me for it. I read about experiences from others and found that this was actually a common occurrence among people who really wish to turn their lives to God. There is an inner knowing which develops that tells us that one’s relationship with God is the most valuable thing in all the universe by a magnitude of infinite compared to anything else. Thus there then comes this fear of the possibility of one losing that relationship. This creates great fear and anxiety and causes one to become very afraid of God.

When this happened to me, I actually noticed the very phenomenon of spiritual distortion occurring that I mentioned in chapter 3. I kept thinking about God in the context of him punishing me and this was weakening my ability to charge spiritual energy. But it was much more than that though. God is always your greatest comforter in times of distress but who do you turn to when focusing on God only increases your distress? It’s one thing to feel distress from everyday problems like not having money, friends or the job you want. But experiencing distress related to your relationship with God is completely different. It can cause a psychological spiral that is really quite unbearable and can feel like a form of torture. I remember reading about one person who went through this spiral and, in the end, became an atheist a result. He simply couldn’t handle it, it was too much for him. Like most atheists, he decided that it was simply more comforting to try to convince himself that this was all in his head and that there was no God. When I went through this spiral, I actually thought for a short time about suicide, it was that bad for me. I just felt that if I could no longer live for God then I simply didn’t want to live. What was the point? There’s really nothing to do here if it’s not for God, there’s no purpose in anything. Of course I did come to my senses eventually and only thought about this for a short time. I only later realized how many signs God had been giving me during that time to demonstrate that he was not punishing me and that my anxiety might be coming from somewhere else. However during that time, I learned that many others had gone through this same fear based spiral that I had. In fact some people never seem to get out of it.

They are stuck in this fear based phase of their relationship with God and do not progress further. This often occurs with Christians who are extremely fearful of judgment and punishment from God. Instead of talking about God from a positive perspective, they will constantly talk about him from a negative perspective. They are more concerned with his power to cause them harm rather than his power to uplift and perfect them. Often this fear causes them to push others away from God rather than bringing them closer to God, the very opposite of what they were hoping to accomplish. This is actually consistent with the law of manifestation. Any local reality that is generated by motivations of fear will likely have less of God’s presence in it rather than more. To properly co-create with God and manifest a local reality with his spirit, you must be motivated by positive intentions rather than negative ones. People who get stuck in this fear based phase tend to never experience the more full love of God at the subconscious level and become stagnant in their ability to serve him because their fear holds them back. I believe it is even the case that there are many preachers who are stuck in this fear phase and constantly tell their listeners to fear God. This actually makes it harder for their listeners to go deeper into their relationship with him. David Diga Hernandez is a preacher who I admire and believe has made it past this fear phase. As a result, his sermons are very uplifting rather than condemning.

When I was very deep in this fear based phase for the first time, there were two things that I learned about it over time. The first was that negative entities actually like to take advantage of this period of time in your life and play on your fears of God. They like to plant compulsions in your subconscious that try to convince you that God hates you and has given up on you. They try to make you think that you should retaliate against God because of this and willingly choose to engage in activities that push away spiritual energy. I believe this has occurred with me during my spiritual crisis and I’ve read about others having a similar experience when they were going through this fear phase in their relationship with God. It is of course important to never believe this and always pursue God, and Jesus Christ I believe, with your whole heart. This is also why true faith in God, which goes beyond just a feeling, is so important. I’ve learned that it’s really not that hard for negative entities to weaken your conviction to follow God and confuse you about his nature – at least when your frequency is low. Another thing I learned during this phase was how to charge spiritual energy even more potently. Because I was so afraid of God, I recognized that I was not charging spiritual energy properly – this was after I’d regained some of my normal ability to charge again. I then remembered my own words about spiritual distortion and understood that the simpler the intention to focus on God is, usually the more easy it is to connect to him. Instead I was focusing on God using intentions that expressed a loaded context of fear, judgment and unworthiness in myself. I then decided to do something a little different. I felt that I needed to “reset” my intention in a sense and try to find God again at the subconscious level while also using the word God in my mind. The subconscious memory that was associated with the word “God” had become distorted and no longer caused my subconscious to switch to a state that made it easy to connect to God. To achieve this again, I either had to find a new word for God or try to change the associations I had with this word in my subconscious memory. In order to do this, I decided that I needed to stop judging myself and thinking of myself as unworthy while focusing on God. This constant self judgment was blocking my ability to connect to God.

So I decided to perform an intentional NOT statement, as discussed in chapter 12 of the first book, and simply not think of anything that could be considered as “judging” while focused on God. Any negative thoughts that came to my mind would not be judged and I would simply switch my focus back to God again and hold it there until I entered a transcendental state. I decided that I would only allow myself to feel that pure feeling of love while focused on God. When I’d done this, what happened next was rather incredible. I felt almost like a dam had been broken and like a huge rush of spiritual energy came pouring in. It was so intense that it was almost overwhelming. I’d never realized just how sensitive spiritual energy was toward the act of judging someone, including myself. Although I hadn’t actively focused on judging myself before when charging spiritual energy, I feel like I must have subconsciously been doing this to a degree without realizing it. Because when I have actively focused on making sure not to judge myself or others while charging spiritual energy, it seemed that this enabled me to charge it on a whole new level. I could feel the purity of this charge in such a potent way that I’m not sure I’ve ever felt before. This experience taught me how important it was not to judge oneself, or others, so harshly. That is not to say that I never judge myself, in fact I still do all the time. But I know that I have to disallow myself from doing this a great deal in order to charge spiritual energy to even higher levels of intensity. This experience also taught me that it is probably not in God’s nature to judge us since it becomes much easier to connect to him when I stop charging this feeling of judgment. Yet many NDEs would seem to indicate that some kind of judgment does take place after death, perhaps it may be a different kind of judgment from the one that we humans tend to think of. According to deep NDEr Christian Andréason, it is actually our higher self that judges us in the afterlife. Whatever the case though, I believe that some of form of judgment does occur.

The next phase of one’s relationship with God, at least one that I’ve experienced, is the stubbornness phase. Once you make it pass the fear phase, you start to feel freedom again inside of your relationship with God. You feel the love, joy and peace of God’s presence without so much of the fear that you’ve felt before. Although this is a wonderful thing, it can actually have something of a negative effect on you as you now feel free again to engage in activities that push spiritual energy away. Although you probably will not want to all that much most of the time, you may still feel it is ok some of the time because you do not feel the same fear of God that you once did. You know that he loves you and accepts you and is quick to forgive you. But this can end up getting distorted in to a kind of false sense of tacit permission to engage in sinful behavior. When I finally started to feel less fear of God, I would continue to receive messages from God and would receive instructions about activities I should not engage in. The main one was not to watch any porn or masturbate at all. I understood this, but after a time, felt like it wasn’t so bad if I did this sometimes and believed that I would just do it one more time – as I believe we men often say just before we think we’re going to stop for good. Well when I’d done this, I then felt a very negative feeling within me afterwards. In fact I couldn’t even really enjoy the activity the way that I normally could. I actually felt rather sick to my stomach. But it was way worse than that, I felt as though I could actually feel the presence of God slightly being removed from me. This was a really terrible feeling that felt as if I was dying inside. Yet I knew that his presence had not been fully removed because I could still feel it and could even still charge it a little. But, at the same time, I still felt that he had removed a tiny bit of his presence from me. But even that tiny bit still felt absolutely horrible.

I then felt a great deal of shame for my actions because I knew that I was the one who was wrong and brought that experience upon myself. There was nothing to argue or any kind debate to be had to try to justify myself. I was clearly warned and disobeyed God willingly. Had he decided to fully remove his presence from me, I knew that I would have deserved it. Luckily I was able to feel his presence more fully again after a few days but the shame of disobeying God had stayed with me. God is so loving and so peaceful but I had caused him to show a different side that was quite scary. The thought had later occurred to me that I might have also experienced this because I ultimately had asked to in my own way. In my regular prayers to God, I often asked him to help me and guide me in to becoming a better servant to him. I then considered that this sort of “chastising” by him was actually in response to those prayers. Feeling the horrible sensation of his presence being partially removed actually did help me to become a better servant in the end because it helped me to stop sinning in that manner. But still, I’d felt so ashamed and unworthy of God for disobeying him that I think it was causing problems with me carrying out my purpose. I have since then received many uplifting messages from God but I still felt like I was unworthy for what I had done. I just couldn’t shake that feeling. I then began having a series of dreams about the church and felt that I could sense the presence of God very strongly in these dreams. I then had a rather powerful dream that felt like a vision. In the dream, I believe God had reminded me of a passage that I’d read in a book by near death experiencer Brook Jones. The book had the rather strange title “Why Are There Monkeys”. In it, Brook Jones recounts her experience talking to God during an NDE. Within the book, God explained to her that forgiveness is available for all who truly seek it. I then realized then that I really shouldn’t beat myself up about my mistake so much and that God will likely always forgive us as long as we truly desire that forgiveness. Forgiveness itself is one of the qualities of God that can only be experienced in the realm of becoming and, because it is a quality of God, he has it in infinite abundance. We may experience his grace through forgiveness as long as we sincerely desire it from him.

The mistake is in not asking for it because you do not think you need it. To believe you are justified in your actions and can defend them through the sheer power of your own intellect. To be convinced that you should be judged as righteous without needing God’s grace or mercy. This, I believe, is an erroneous way of thinking both spiritually and metaphysically and, actually, is pretty much putting your own judgment above God's since you do not feel the need to consult him in how you've judged yourself first. We exist in the realm of becoming and are by definition imperfect. We’ve all done things that are wrong even though we knew that they were wrong at the time. That’s part of why I try not to judge others any more. I know that when it really comes down to it, I’m no better. No matter what another person has done, I’ve probably done worse. I know that I need God’s forgiveness and mercy to be restored, I cannot be made righteous through my own efforts or justifications – it’s impossible. In fact this is another kind of understanding I’ve gained through my relationship with God. It’s not just that we need God’s forgiveness to be made righteous, but, as you get closer to God, there is also an inner knowing and revelation of just how imperfect you truly are. As your spiritual energy charges more and more, your ability to perceive this imperfection weakens. However, you still know that you are imperfect and ultimately unworthy. I know there are many out there who might not feel comfortable with this line of thinking but this is ultimately what I’ve experienced. In fact this is another feeling that prevents some people from going further into their relationship with God. They feel uncomfortable with this unworthiness feeling and think that maybe it is simply in their head.

But as you draw nearer to God, you start to get a more intuitive sense of just what real perfection looks like and acts like. You then realize more lucidly just how far you truly are from it. This can be a discouraging feeling for some. Yet, at the same time, it is also encouraging as well. This is because, over time, you realize that you have an opportunity to chase this perfection. In fact that was, I believe, the entire reason the realm of becoming was created. It was to give you the chance to experience the journey of becoming perfect. You will never be completely perfect in this world and you weren’t expected to be. For that, we need God’s grace and forgiveness as this will be what allows us to be restored in the end. However, we can still dedicate ourselves to at least giving a good faith effort to trying to become perfect or imitate it in our lives. This means giving an honest effort to maintain a strong relationship with God, living in a way that honors him, follow his instructions when given and making an effort to regularly charge spiritual energy both emotionally and through your purpose based actions. This also includes giving your testimony about the goodness of God and how he’s changed your life to others so that they might discover this goodness for themselves and develop a strong relationship with him too and tell others too. The true desire to live this way actually brings on what I think is the last phase of one’s relationship with God – the obedience phase. Now this might sound like a dirty word in which one is not allowed the freedom to be themselves. But that is not what’s actually going on in this phase. Once you become dedicated to God and the spiritual path to a sufficient degree, you just decide that it’s all you want. You recognize that everything else is just an illusion and all that there truly ever was the choice of moving closer to God. Nothing else ever truly mattered or was worth while, it’s all completely meaningless. The only thing that really matters in life is God and your relationship with him. And once you wake up to this fact, you no longer wish to participate in the illusion and wish only to live for God. This desire for God and the joy we feel in aligning ourselves with him was actually how he made our spirits to be. It is not a question of simply choosing to find happiness in God. Rather, he made you so that it's impossible to find true happiness otherwise. The only question is whether or not you willingly choose to become the highest version of yourself by aligning yourself with God.

When you do decide to pursue God and wake up from the illusion of this reality, you generally first decide more fully that you no longer wish to sin or engage in actions that push spiritual energy away. You recognize that you cannot both say you want a relationship with God and also have a lax attitude about sin where you regularly engage in it in a premeditated way. This attitude shows that you still favor sin and aren’t quite ready to give it up. But then that is the same as saying you haven’t fully chosen God yet either because his nature is the opposite of sin. This concept reminds me of an idiom in the bible that is attributed to Jesus, “You cannot serve two masters. You will love one and hate the other.” I am paraphrasing the quote here but that is essentially the gist of it. During the obedience phase, you recognize that you cannot, in your heart, choose both sin and God at the same time, you have to pick one. It is here that you “go all in” as we Christians say and dedicate yourself to God and make it your hearts deepest desire to avoid actions that push spiritual energy away. Of course you always still will to some extent as we’ll never be perfect in that regard. However, your heart expresses the sincerest desire to avoid sin and this desire is bore out in your actions. Furthermore, your goal isn’t just to avoid something, it’s also to draw nearer to something too – that something of course being God. You want to only do that which is truly good for yourself and all the world. But then how can we truly know what is best for ourselves and others?

Recall from chapter 7 of book I that our subconscious can tell us what is right or wrong based on the context but it can’t tell us which context accurately describes reality. It is possible for us to do something that we think is good but actually ends up causing a negative outcome. It is also possible to do good and think it caused a negative outcome when it really did not. Is there any way to truly know then whether or not what we’re doing is for the highest good? Well yes, there actually is and this actually goes back to the law of knowing. We may not be able to tell what is best for us and others but God can and that’s what his instructions for us are based on achieving. In other words, he is always giving instructions that help to manifest his grand plan for all of humanity. Following this plan is the highest good that we can possibly commit and is the greatest expression of love. This is why the last phase of one’s relationship with God is obedience. God is love and when all you want to do act for the highest good of all the world, that is the same as saying you want to always do as God tells you to because that will always be the highest possible good for the all the world that you can do. You’re not obedient by force you’re obedient by choice. Ultimately the highest expression of love is to willingly choose to have a relationship with God and be directed by him. You can’t possibly do more good for the world and yourself otherwise. For us Christians, this is probably not all that surprising since this was exactly the kind of model life that Jesus Christ lead.

This is currently the phase that I believe I am in with my relationship with God and these are the realizations and beliefs that I’ve come to in my relationship with him. Whenever I think about making some major decision in my life, I always feel it important to consult with God or Jesus first because I never wish to act in a way that is not in accord with their will. As long as I am granted permission for some action, I know that I am acting for the highest good of the world and not against it. At first I started doing this in what David Diga Hernandez would call a "highly legalistic" way. I started thinking that some kind of lawyerly like following of what I believe I was asked of by God was the way to stay within his word. The problem was that this was causing me to revert back to the faith based phase. I kept thinking that if I didn't follow what I thought God was asking of me, he would punish me or I'd fall out of favor with him. I then realized that this consistent thought was actually causing me to doubt my relationship with God and that my subconscious was charging this belief more and more as I kept thinking it. I could actually feel my frequency dropping as a result, which felt like a form of spiritual bleeding.

This thought was even manifesting in my dreams and I could tell it was making it harder for me to receive messages from God and my higher self. Even though I kept getting messages indicating that I didn't need to worry about losing favor with God, I couldn't help questioning this anyway as it was of course very important to me. As I prayed to God about it, I believe he'd shown me that I just needed to have absolute faith and trust in him. I simply had to always believe that I was one with God, had a strong relationship with him and that nothing I could do could ever separate me from him. My relationship with him can't be based on legalism or "earning" his favor somehow. Because the moment I start thinking that way, there will then be some condition that gives me a reason to start doubting again. When I started to have pure unquestionable faith in God, my spiritual bleeding seemed to stop and I could feel it charging normally again. I then realized that the obedience phase isn't about perfection, we can never be perfect no matter how hard we try. Instead the obedience phase is about having and expressing an honest desire to follow the will of God while also accepting you're own imperfections and misunderstandings. It is about allowing room for yourself to make possible mistakes, just as God does. Now to be clear this does not mean willfully sinning but rather occasionally being in error about what you think God is asking of you. It's about finding the balance between your desire to follow the will of God and the imperfect nature you will always have no matter how hard you try to avoid it. This is ultimately what I learned about being obedient to God.

An area where I believe this obedience is especially important is when it comes to engaging in highly metaphysical or supernatural phenomena. The metaphysical world is different from this world and supernatural events can have far reaching consequences throughout space and time in terms of how they affect the manifestation of reality. Thus it is very important to have a strong relationship with God and always ensure that you are acting in a way that is aligned with the will God. As you begin to really dedicate yourself to living in this manner, you may find, as I did, that there is so much room for you to grow and challenge yourself to be a better person. Many people end up living their whole lives without ever taking even a few steps down this spiritual path. They get too caught up in the illusion of the physical world and spend their whole lives chasing things that ultimately mean nothing. But when you decide that the only thing that matters is God and becoming more like him in the goodness of your own thoughts and actions, you realize that you have a long road ahead of you when it comes to reaching that ideal. But, over time, you also begin to realize that walking down this road feels fulfilling in a way that nothing else in this world ever has or could. You will actually feel grateful for the challenges in your life because they gave you the opportunity to walk this spiritual road. There are even more gifts and blessings from God that you will likely experience walking down this road, as I believe I have. Although I could discuss this in more detail, I’ve decided to leave it to the reader to discover these other phenomena for themselves.

GOD FORCE ENERGY THEORY

In this section, I'd like to briefly discuss a new theory I had about God and our ability to manipulate reality through his spirit. Although I have not yet tested out this theory for myself, I still wanted to mention it here as there may be someone out there interested in discovering if this is possible. To start with, this theory will primarily apply to the understanding of Christians as that is my belief system and the way in which I believe the metaphysical reality is governed. By this I mean that various ideas in Christianity are embedded in the truth of reality and therefore cannot be omitted when discussing the metaphysical reality. Now this new theory I had has to do with a highly advanced way of using the law of manifestation and chi energy – perhaps the most advanced way possible. Recall that chi energy is a metaphysical energy that allows us to use intention to manipulate the external reality. When we focus and command our chi, it will attempt to "manifest" our intention in the external reality. Well, the thought had occurred to me that if the law of manifestation extends all the way to God, then perhaps this same idea can be used for influence type psychic abilities too.

To explain this further, recall that I mentioned earlier that God's spirit enters our reality through the law of manifestation. This of course is not an absolute limit on God himself but rather is a sort of rule he has placed on this reality. He does not interfere, past a very basic minimum, unless our intention expresses a desire for him to do so. After thinking about this rule a bit, I'd wondered if it also applies to chi energy too. Namely, if we attempt to use chi to manifest some outcome in reality but do so in a way that expresses desire to manifest the will of God, does this enable God's spirit to manifest in the reality through our chi? Now technically I mentioned this phenomenon a bit earlier when talking about energy nodes. There I mentioned how important it was to charge spiritual energy and invoke the name of God or Jesus Christ when using chi energy to manifest some positive intention, such as when healing or blessing something. However, what I'm considering here actually goes a lot further than that. In this case, I'm not necessarily talking about connecting to God's spirit to purify yours so that the outcomes of your chi energy manifestations are positive and are aligned with God's spirit. Rather, I'm now referring to something much greater.

I've considered that it may actually be possible to use the law of manifestation to tap into the awesome power of God, down to his infinite power to manipulate reality. In fact, we may not necessarily just be talking about chi energy here as that is a local energy phenomenon limited by the life form it is associated with. This either could include the highest possible version of chi energy or a new kind of energy all its own that is separate from chi. For our purposes here, I've decided to simply call this special energy God Force Energy. This is essentially the infinitely potent divine energy that God himself uses to manipulate reality. I believe that it may be possible for us to actually tap into that reservoir of power and use it create positive outcomes in our world. I got this idea from hearing about something that Jesus had said as described in the bible. He mentioned in John 14:12 that people who believe in him will have the ability to perform the same miracles that he did. In fact, he actually said that we'd be able to perform even greater miracles than he. Certainly it just seems impossible that we could ever do anything as great as Jesus could, let alone doing it in some way that could be described as "greater". Yet that is what he is believed to have said. Assuming that this bible verse is true and that Jesus did say this, I wondered, from a metaphysical perspective, how this might occur.

After thinking about it for a while, I figured first that this would work through the power of the Holy Spirit. Of course that in itself is not exactly a ground breaking revelation as many people believe that to be the case in regards to this verse as well. However I mention that here to say that I too agree with this assessment. Furthermore, in order to receive the Holy Spirit, a person must have first been "approved", in a sense, by Jesus Christ himself. This generally occurs by becoming a believer in Jesus, having faith in him for salvation, repenting of one's sins and developing and maintaining a strong relationship with him. Although there are many Christians who would describe themselves as being believers in Jesus and say that they have faith in him, I do not believe just having this belief is enough. It is an absolute must that a person repent as well. This means having a sincere desire to avoid sin for the rest of your life because you want to be closer to God. Of course you will still sin eventually as no one is perfect. But your desire to avoid it is still sincere and you never stop making it a high priority to avoid committing even one sin for the entire time you're alive.

After this, a person must then charge a large amount of spiritual energy so that they have a very strong connection to God at the subconscious level. Now this is probably where the greatest amount of difficulty in tapping into God Force Energy comes in. To access this power, it is not enough to simply have a decent connection to God. I believe that one would actually need to have an exceptionally extraordinary connection to him. This essentially means charging so much spiritual energy and becoming so connected to God, through your subconscious mind, that you are practically one with him, which is also how Jesus described himself when saying "I and the Father are one". To reach this level of spiritual energy one would absolutely need to be dedicated to serving God. This is because this desire would be expressed by your intention and thus would allow God's spirit to enter your local reality through the law of manifestation. This would allow you to more easily receive messages and directions from God and divine beings, which of course is in accord with the desire you expressed when saying you want to serve him. Although it probably goes without say at this point, a person who has reached this level of spiritual energy would also have already started their eternal dialogue and conversation with God on a conscious level as described in chapter 4. This means that they regularly pray to God and Jesus Christ and are receptive of their responses.

This dialogue would also help the individual to receive direction from God and stay within his word. It would also help them to carry out the purpose in life that God has given them. Recall that engaging in behaviors that work toward fulfilling your divine purpose and soul purpose also increase your spiritual energy. Such an individual would also be very likely to perform moral behaviors often as this helps to increase their spiritual energy as well. They would probably still use the charging technique mentioned in chapter 3 for the lion share of their spiritual energy charge though. Now once a person has dedicated themselves to God and Jesus Christ in this manner and has charged a huge enough of amount of spiritual energy, now it is only a matter of receiving approval from God. Such an individual would then pray to God and request permission to serve him by tapping into God Force Energy for some positive goal. This goal for example could be similar to that of Jesus', which was to help others to know him and develop a strong relationship with God. If approved by God, then one would then receive direction by him in how they're to use this energy. Let's say that it is to perform miracles. This individual, in theory, would then be able to perform miracles not unlike those performed by Jesus. They would be able to heal the sick, turn water into wine, give sight to the blind, multiply food to feed the hungry and so on.

In Mark 11:23 of the bible, Jesus says that those who have faith and do not doubt, can tell a mountain to go and throw itself into the sea and it will do just that. I believe this is a reference to how much power a person has when they've successfully tapped into God Force Energy through the Holy Spirit. Once approval has been received from God, one would likely access this power in the same manner that they do chi energy, which we spoke about in chapter 8. However, instead of relying on the storage of chi from their own etheric body, they would rely on the power, not sure if it's still chi at this point, from the Holy Spirit. Because this power is basically infinite, one could in theory do just about anything with it you could think of. This is what I think Jesus meant in saying that we will perform miracles even greater than he. It is possible that he was even holding back in what he could do so that we would gain even greater comprehension of this amazing power on our own. For example, it would even be possible for a single individual to get rid of every disease on the plant or bring rain to the most desert like environments around the world all at once. The only limit on such a power would be that it has to be aligned with the will of God.

A person could not use this power to destroy the planet for example since that would not be aligned with God's will. I believe that a person who reaches a high enough level of spirituality to access the God Force could be thought of as reaching such a high level of enlightenment that the term itself would no longer seem sufficient. To me, it would seem more apt to say that such an individual has reached a christ like level of spirituality. Of course that is not to say that they are equal to Jesus Christ, but it is only a description of how far they've gone in their connection and relationship with him and God the Father. Although I'm not actually sure if any person since Jesus himself has truly reached this christ like level of spirituality, I have heard of stories that indicate that others may have done so or have gotten close. I should also mention that there may be a way for us to access the power of the Holy Spirit in a much more limited way as well. This more limited way would not necessarily require such a large amount of spiritual energy or "oneness" with God per se. For example, I've heard an NDE of a women who explained that, after she came back to life, had the ability to heal others through the power of the Holy Spirit. It could be that there are varying degrees of capability that we have when it comes to tapping in to God Force Energy.

However, I believe that, should accessing this theoretical power be possible, that using this power in a more full and limitless way, with a touch of freedom, requires the christ like level of awareness that I mentioned. By "freedom" in this case, I mean that you're trusted by God to a degree and are pretty much given complete, or nearly complete, access to the God Force. This would almost be like saying that you're practically as powerful as God. Of course that is not the case though and you would still need approval from God any time you use this power. But still though, in a certain sense, you're given some degree of free reign in how you use the God Force. For example I am free to ask God for permission to use this power for such and such purpose rather than it only being the case that he tells me directly when and how to use this power and then me waiting for him to tell me when and how to use it again. In other words, your wishes play a part in directing how this power is to be used but God still has the final say ultimately. I believe this is the paradigm under which Jesus both accessed and used the God Force as well. However, again, this is just a theory I had which may or may not be true.

MY EXPERIENCE WITH JESUS

In the final section of this book, I'd like to talk about a spiritual experience I had that I thought was pretty amazing. I wanted to share this experience for readers who may be interested. Although there are many more details to provide in terms of the prayers I made and the spiritual experiences I had in the days leading up to this experience, I will primarily just talk about the experience itself. One day I was talking to my brother about something relatively random and inconsequential and then went to bed to lay down and go to sleep. As I closed my eyes and then attempted to drift off to sleep, I suddenly felt this presence and saw this image in my mind. I wasn't actually all the way sleep yet but was still just sort of in the drifting off day dreaming stage. As random images and thoughts popped into my mind, I suddenly the saw the image of a man smiling back at me. I also felt what I can only call a divine presence that felt amazing. The experience itself lasted maybe only a minute or two. However, I'd say it was definitely the most amazing experience of my life so far.

At the time this experience started occurring, I was actually thinking about Jesus and I believe that the man I saw in my mind was Jesus himself. I believe there was an inner knowing that simply told me this was the case, which is actually how most people describe spiritual experiences with Jesus. I'd like to now talk about some interesting take aways that I've learned from this experience with Jesus. The first has to do with the way I now believe things appear in heaven. Although I didn't actually see heaven per se, I saw Jesus directly, including his facial expression. The first thing that surprised me was actually just how young Jesus appeared. I'd always imagined Jesus to be someone who looked around 33 or so, which is generally believed to be about the age he was when he died in human form. However, when I saw him, he was much younger, I'd say around 21 or 22. What was also amazing to see was just how fresh and full of life Jesus appeared to be. I say this because he didn't just look like a normal 21 or 22 year old – it definitely went beyond that. It was very obvious that his skin hadn't undergone even one second of decay. It was permanently in a state of youth that was just overflowing with life. It was actually pretty amazing to see.

After seeing Jesus, I assumed that pretty much everything in heaven looks similar to the way he does. And in assuming this, I realized something else about heaven and about our experience as humans in general. I realized that, as humans, our ability to conceive of beauty can only go so far. As in, we can't really imagine beauty beyond the most beautiful things that we've seen in this world. I realized that beauty, beyond a certain level, is a lot like what we perceive as color in a way. For example, you can't really describe a color to a person who is color blind or has never seen that particular color before. If you've never seen the color red, then there is nothing that I could say to you to get you to suddenly know what it's like to experience the color red. You just have to have seen red for yourself to truly understand what it's like to experience it. Similarly, I realized that heaven is so beautiful that we simply can't conceive of it. We are only capable of imagining beauty to the degree that we have experienced it in this world. But the beauty of heaven goes so far beyond that, it's basically impossible to know what it's like to experience it until you have. I realized that the beauty and glory of heaven is so incredible and so amazing, that it's actually better that most people don't see it – at least not while they're alive. This was interesting too because I occasionally have had dreams that included Jesus in it but never in, what I heard one person call, his "glorious" form.

Normally Jesus appears as a normal person or simply a presence I can't actually see. There was one time where I felt I saw Jesus in my mind and he appeared to be a bright shining white light, like the sun. But then I could not actually see him directly. For this experience though, I could see him directly and I realized then that his glory and the glory of heaven is so magnificent that it could potentially just ruin your experience of life here on earth. It's like once you've experienced that glory, you just want to go back to it and experience more and more of it. The moment you actually know what you're missing, it becomes harder to accept the limited beauty and glory of this world. It wasn't so bad for me though because I can just charge my subconscious energy to feel close to God but still, I strongly believe that there will be at least some people who'd have a very hard time living in this world after catching at least a glimpse of heaven. Seeing this would probably just make them miserable as a result. They'd then have a hard time focusing on their purpose here on earth because they'd keep wanting to go back to heaven. In fact this is a common sentiment expressed by NDErs who've claimed to have seen heaven. Since this experience, I've actually learned that most people are better off not seeing heaven until they've died and that God and Jesus don't always appear to us in their glorious form for our benefit.

Another take away from this experience with Jesus has to do with what his presence felt like. If you can imagine the center of a nuclear explosion, then imagine that explosion continually repeating itself over and over again and then imagine the frequency of that explosion increasing so that it seems like a continuous non-stop explosion, then you can imagine a little bit of what it's like to be in Jesus' presence. Except for Jesus, the thing that's being released in this continuous explosion is positive energy and emotion. It's like a non-stop powerful blast of, not just love, but I think any positive emotion you want to feel. When I first felt the presence of Jesus, I initially noticed just how friendly his presence was. Jesus is so insanely powerful, yet I did not feel intimated by him. He just seemed so friendly and welcoming that it was just wonderful be near him. I got the sense that it was basically impossible not to like him. There was nothing you could dislike, he was perfect in every way. But what was interesting was that I eventually stopped focusing on this feeling of friendliness Jesus was projecting and then started focusing on another feeling he was projecting that seemed to really catch my attention.

I'm not sure why I was so enamored with this feeling, but I could actually feel the royalty of Jesus. It was utterly amazing. I have read about NDE's that describe a kind of throne room in heaven but never really thought much about this. However, I believe that I could actually sense this sort of majestic king throne room like royal energy from Jesus and I just couldn't get enough of it. It felt unbelievably incredible. It just felt so pure and divine, it was clear that it was God's version of the emotion we feel when we think of royalty. I then started to think of the human version of this royalty feeling as being like a cheap 99 cent version and the feeling of divine royalty as being the version that only billionaires could afford. Even to this day, I still find myself wanting to feel that emotion again. Another thing I'll say is that the feeling of Jesus presence also felt very similar to the feeling I get when I charge spiritual energy, only it was more intense and specific. Usually when I charge spiritual energy, I focus primarily on the universal love feeling and feel that most intensely in terms of the range of positive emotions I feel. However, I realized that near Jesus and perhaps in heaven in general, you can feel all positive emotions at the highest level of purity and intensity. You don't have to charge a specific one and focus mostly on just that one.

The last thing I'd like to mention about this experience that's probably even stranger than all of this is that I could feel this energy build up in my back while it was happening, mainly concentrated in two areas next to my shoulder blades. Then, after this experience had ended, I actually felt these two energy like structures protruding out of my back in these two areas near my shoulder blades. If I had to describe it, I'd say it actually felt like I had wings sticking out of my back. I have actually felt this sensation of wings ever since. Although I could not and have never actually seen these wings directly, I have always felt them since this experience. For the first two weeks roughly, these wings actually felt kind of heavy. I had to actually focus on how I walked because it was hard to balance them at first. They kept adding momentum to my walk that I wasn't used to and I had to make an effort to stay more balanced as I walked. I also found that they made my back a bit sore at first because they kept pulling on it. Because this was a really strange experience that I was not familiar with, I decided to do some research to find out if anyone else had ever experienced something like this before. I later learned that these were generally referred to as etheric wings and that other people have experienced them and described the way they feel in the same way that I experienced, although it does not seem to be a very common phenomenon.

At first I wasn't quite sure what these wings meant or what I was supposed to do with them. But what was kind of funny was that I knew how these things worked with God and higher beings in the spirit realm. By this I mean I knew that they weren't going to just tell me directly what the deal was with them. The soul likes to experience the process of becoming and this also includes us discovering divinity and figuring out certain things about it on our own, although God and higher beings will always guide us in this process. Thus, I knew that I would have to learn how to use these wings and what they meant through the pursuit of that information over time. However, so far, I've learned that these wings respond very strongly to spiritual energy. When I focus on God and charge spiritual energy, I can feel them expanding and essentially fluttering in a way. Now before ending this section, I should mention that when I saw Jesus, there was a short time where the image of another being was also in my mind but then went away quickly. This being was a monstrous red and black looking figure and seemed to be utterly pissed that I was having this experience with Jesus. I have since learned that these wings have something to do with working against that red and black figure. That being said, I actually wasn't planning to include this experience in this book, and there are actually many spiritual experiences that I have not, because I thought it might sound like an over the top embellishment. However, I believe God told me to share my experience in this book so I've decided to do so. Although it sounds crazy, I believe that there are likely other people out there who have had a similar experience. Hopefully mentioning this experience here let's them know that they are not alone and that such an experience, as with any experience from God, is a blessing.

Footnotes

1. This is why I believe Jesus states, in the bible, “blessed are those who believe without seeing”. The metaphysical world is different from the physical world and belief impacts what kind of activity goes on in the metaphysical, including activity related to God. Thus faith, the belief and trust in God, is what allows you to first begin manifesting a reality that includes his spirit in it. That faith of course being brought on by the inner knowing that God exists which is permanently planted into your subconscious.

2. If your subconscious compels your conscious mind to produce intentions that sustain a particular charge and does this more and more strongly as your charge grows more and more intense, then it reasonable to conclude that this would cause your subconscious to essentially stay charged endlessly. This would be a correct assumption and is why the body uses negative memory to prevent this from happening.

3. I believe that spiritual truth is primarily gained through our relationship with God as well. We will talk more about this later in the chapter.

4. During some NDEs, it is occasionally mentioned that the NDEr came to this earth for a specific purpose and actually agreed to the very difficult life that the NDEr experienced. This occurred with Betty Eadie as well. I was curious to know if I had done anything like this before birth and if God would reveal this experience to me.

5. A particular woman whose story I was very impressed by is that of Lindsey Stirling. She is an American violinist who performed on a show called "America's Got Talent". She had a performance that did not go well yet she did not give up on her desire to continue performing and becoming a better violinist. Listening to her music today, I honestly can't see how she is not easily among the most talented violinists of all time. Although I'm not particularly interested in violin and certainly couldn't tell you who the "greats" of that genre are. I can tell you however that I am least at the dilettante level when it comes to music and music theory in general and I don't think I've ever heard anyone play an instrument in a way that has convinced me that they have completely maxed out the talent level that our human form allows us to reach. In other words I can believe that there are others out there who play as good as her or close to it but I can't see how they can play significantly better than her. I just don't think it's possible. That's at least my opinion on how amazing and moving I think her music is. I say all this to say that I believe it was actually her soul's purpose to experience the processing of becoming by developing the skill to play violin and her desire to perform allows her to use that skill to enrich society. In the realm of being she'd already have such a skill suped up to the max. But in the realm of becoming, she has the chance to learn what it's like to develop this skill. I believe God and her soul have guided her at the subconscious level throughout her life to pursue this purpose.

6. I remember listening to the audio book "To Heaven and Back" by NDEr Mary Neal. In it, she mentioned a well known poem about God called "Footprints in the Sand". If the reader has not read this poem, I recommend to do so. It may contain the most accurate description of God in the shortest amount of words. I believe this poem very accurately describes what our relationship with God is actually like during times of distress